After prayer and talking with my hubs... considering the cost of online education...although conveinent...very very expensive...why is this???? There is no building I will be taking up space in, no rec center I will be a part of...thus no fee, and no light or air that I will be using...so why does it cost @ $18,000 to get a Master's degree in 17 months online from Phoenix. Is this ridiculus or have I truly been that secluded these past 7 years at home! Wow! and I say Wow! I guess that is what a car loan might would run me...
The feeling of dread subsided when the hubs and I talked about the looming loan if I returned to school right now. I am highly qualified and do plan to return to get my masters...just did not feel right to incur this huge debt at this moment in our lives.
Oh well... now that this worry is over for now...back to the grind...
got to get to work on this HDL and exercise and doing a better job with my housework and wifely/motherly duties. ;)
Right at the borderline of applying for Graduate school online. A friend of mine got her Master's through Phoenix online. It is quick and I don't have to deal with campus stuff! I'm a little hesitant because it's something that will take up my time but it is at the least only 18 months. Yep, I said it...18 months of my time at the most 3 years...it has to be completed within that time frame. It makes a whole lot of sense since I will be returning to teaching (hopefully next fall) and my schedule will be oh so busy if I wait until I return. I'd rather focus on teaching when I return to teaching instead of having to work on classwork at the same time...returning to teaching will be a job in and of itself. Ty is now in school and Terra is at preschool for some time during the week so I have the opportunity to knock this thing out! It'd be great to start teaching at Master's pay too!
I am praying this is the right decision for me. I know that there are so many other worries in the world right now but I feel that this is a step in the right direction for me. Things are changing so fast and I feel down a little right now. Not really sure why. I just got back fairly good news form Dr. about my cholesterol levels- LDL is not high! I do have my health but there is something that is just nagging at me and I can't figure out what it is. I always work well when I am really busy. I tend to work more effeciently and effectively when I have my plate fairly full...not overflowing but full. Could I be suffering from a little depression because my kids are growing too fast for my taste and I just won't admit it to anyone? At times I feel like becoming a recluse and just living inside my house never having to think, much less encounter the outside world...thank you Mr. Obama.
I know that I need to be busy about all kinds of things. Please if you do not mind, say a prayer for me and my foggy mind...I'm a little groggy and out of whack right now. Maybe this is a nagging that this is not the right time for grad school. I will continue to pray.
Terra will be starting preschool two days a week starting next week. Ty starts 1st grade. Things, they are moving forward. I have been blessed in my life very much! I have been fortunate enough to have two faithful christians as parents, siblings who are faithful, and thier spouses are too. I have inlaws that are all faithful christians, even those that are around accountable age. I am blessed with good friends who always offer me feedback on my problems and encouragement in my successes. I at times take for granted the things that bless me on a daily basis. I have been blessed with good health all my life. My aunt who is in her early 50's had triple-bypass surgery about two months ago. High Cholesterol runs in my mom's side of the family and about 7 years ago, I had mine tested through the school system I was teaching in and it scored in the lower 300's. I never went back to check it out...I'll admit because I was not really that concerned with it and 2nd because I didn't want to be told I was at high risk for heart disease. I will be checking things out next week. I will probably be handed medication on my way our the door...and I know how hard lowering cholesterol is with just diet and exercise. Maybe the meds will give me that jump start in lowering my bad numbers so that I can jump into a better diet and regular exercise! I want to be here Lord willing to see my children Grow in the Lord!
This new school year brings exciting feelings. Terra will benefit I know from interaction with other kids her age for longer periods of time. She's already ahead academically but socially, she needs the interaction. Ty, while sad to leave his favorite K teacher...is excited to learn to love his 1st grade teacher. Ty will be my little academia guru...Terra...well I am not sure yet if her thing is academia, or just creativity in general...she loves to pretend to be things and loves to draw. She is still my little baby and such a girly girl!
Hopefully Lord willing I will return to teaching in public school next year. I am excited and have so much passion for teaching in general. In my years at home (going on 8) I have spent a majority of time teaching my own children since birth and also diving into teaching bible class and learning and growing so much in His word. Don't get me wrong...I have no where touched the surface in bible study that I need to but this time at home has given me some wonderful opportunities to teach the two most precious children I will ever teach as well as teach God's word to their friends in bible classes.
May the Lord richly bless us all as we make decisions concerning our spiritual life and the growth of our families both physically and spiritually!
It's been an full and eventful summer so far... and not over yet. Next week GEMS camp, and VBS immediately the following week. Then...maybe I can breathe! Aren't summers supposed to be relaxing and vacation-like? I need a vacation from my vacation!...more later on recent events and happenings from my grad course to RYC to GEMS to VBS... makes me tired just to type it! Later!
After the wind storm, 20+ shingles have been gathered from neighbors backyard as well an my own and stacked up...all having been blown off my roof. Hope it doesn't leak before insur. adjuster can examine it! In checking the leak out... a visit to the attic was in order... the blown insulation covered one of the boards that was laid down to walk across and I stepped too close to the edge and fell knee first into the floor (ceiling of my kitchen) creating a diamond shapped hole right in front of the door that goes out to our garage! (LOVELY HUH?) If I had gone foot first, I am sure I would have broken something...leg/hip/something! Well, I ended up with a pretty bad bruise on my left hip, a skinned lower shin and ankle and a bad scrape on my left forearm. All coated in blown insulation... that stuff burns ya know! Cleaning it from off my kitchen floor...not good for the lungs either!
Got a mask to finish the job!
I have decided to change my middle name to "Grace" since I lack it lately!
Maybe if I sit and do nothing...I can't do any more damage to myself or my house!
Anyone want to come live my life for me?...I'm not doing a very good job!
Maybe things will get better in the next few days!!!