God The Father

at 06/17/12 1:56PM *
This day... is not exactly an easy one for me. If you're as much of a Facebooker as I am, you've no doubt seen all the Father's Day statuses and pictures and such. I am so thankful that I know so many families in which the head of the home is leading and loving his family as he ought to be, and while I am thankful to have a man to call my dad, I can't help but feel pricked in my heart that I cannot experience the same joy of having a righteous and Godly one. I am so blessed to have had so many Godly husbands and fathers to observe and listen to, God has certainly been good to me in that respect. But what hurts me is that many of the important things I've learned about being a man of spiritual integrity are not things I can say I learned from my own father. I am not ashamed of him, and I don't know if I could possibly love him more, but that pain is still there. I am sorry if I dampen anyone's spirits in any way by sharing this, however, I do have a bit more to say on the matter....

Gary Walton is not my only father. My God in heaven is my Father, in every way imaginable, and there is no one better suited for the job than He is. He has watched over me, and known me even before I was flesh and blood. Before I ever existed. The wisdom I can gain from Him is infallible, and when my stubborn heart yields to His guidance, He never fails me. And even when in my stubbornness, He is patient and faithful. Even as I learn from faithful Christian men, I am still, basically, learning from God, because those men are conforming to His character. He has always been there, and always will be.

Today I am thankful I have a God I can call Father.
  • meditationis
    Thank you for sharing this. I've not been a fan of Father's Day since my dad died. It's not the same but I do understand the whole mixed emotions thing.
    by meditationis at 06/17/12 2:45PM
  • 23_bravo_7
    My Dad was my hero. He was not a perfect father and had a temper that was often taken out on me being the oldest and only son. Not physically but in other ways. But for all his imperfections he was unselfish toward me and my two sisters. He always had time for his kids. I will always admire that about him. I confess that on this day every year I realize that all too often in my younger child rearing days, I did not live up to my Dad's example.

    You don't dampen my spirits and I am happy that you share this with your Pleo friends.
    by 23_bravo_7 at 06/17/12 3:08PM
  • misssonja
    Many of us experience the pain of family relationships wounded or broken by sin, and for us holidays intended to express gratitude for fathers and mothers feel like a barb in the heart. Mother's Day is harder for me than Father's Day, but both carry a sting that leaves a welt for a week or two.
    In your case, however, I look forward to the day that Father's Day takes on a new and joyful meaning for you, and for the days when you feel a whole new level of love and appreciation and reward after fulfilling that role earnestly.
    by misssonja at 06/17/12 4:04PM
  • sirtarin
    'Tis a blessing beyond compare to have our greater Father.
    by sirtarin at 06/17/12 4:41PM
  • sirtorin
    Something to be very thankful for indeed.
    by sirtorin at 06/17/12 10:29PM
  • cyber_space_cadet
    Your first paragraph breaks my heart for you.

    The second paragraph and following...well, they fill my heart to bursting...not only because of God's faithfulness and His care for you...but because of your total trust in Him.
    by cyber_space_cadet at 06/17/12 11:02PM
  • sallyanne
    Your thoughts are beautiful. I have no doubt that some day YOU will be counted among those faithful men who many admire as godly fathers!
    by sallyanne at 06/19/12 8:51AM
  • _fire_of_fantasy_
    Wasn't the music great? I *need* the soundtrack... X)
    by _fire_of_fantasy_ at 06/29/12 1:57AM