Life and Music

I love music. It gets me through life. Good times and bad. When things get tough I tend to close out the pop genre, too much noise for brain. I've started listening to almost only praise and worship genre. Things seem so much clearer when I'm listening to someone praising God. Casting Crowns have always been a favorite, Skillet when I need a little rock. I love this song so much and I find myself listening to it multiple times throughout my day. In all of the "adventures" that have come my way I've never felt the urge to be angry at God. I may not show up at church every time the doors are open but I always find myself leaning on Him for strength, love and guidance no matter what is going on. When things get really tough I can feel Satan lingering, waiting for me to be angry at God. In fact on my way to the hospital a couple weeks ago I remember saying out loud in the car, YOU WILL NOT MAKE ME ANGRY AT GOD. MY GOD IS AWESOME AND LOVES ME. GO AWAY, LEAVE ME BE. Some people walk away from the Lord and blame Him for events in their life. I cannot imagine going through life NOT having His strength to draw upon. I was feeling a little run down today, Tuesday marks three years since my miscarriage and Thursday marks a month since my tubal pregnancy. Trying to stay positive but also let myself mourn. That's the challenge, finding a balance of those two things. Right now though the times that I want to break down emotionally I'm at work, not really the place I want to be when I have an emotional moment. lol Oh well. It is what it is and I'm pressing on. That's all for now I guess. Thanks for "listening". :)

  • curlie
    by curlie at 04/15/13 10:37AM
  • mamahastings
    Good post :) Glad you are leaning on Him.
    by mamahastings at 04/19/13 6:56PM
  • lindseyd
    It's so good to "hear" from you!:) Our son is now doing awesome after his revisions, so I hope yours does just as well, if not better. It is so worth it!:) I'm so sorry about the recent heartbreak in your life, but I'm so thankful to hear you casting all your cares upon our sufficient savior. Much love to you!
    by lindseyd at 09/06/14 2:24PM

Deja Vu

Having a feeling of been here done that the last ten days. Losing an unborn child was a sorrow I hoped I would never know again. Round two is no less sorrowful. I feel more at peace though than I did three years ago. To be honest I've only let myself focus on healing until about yesterday. I didn't have the energy to waste on anything else. So my second week off work will be more focused on my mental health as I continue to physically heal. I have enjoyed everyone's kind words and cards. Thank you so much for being there for us.
  • curlie
    by curlie at 03/25/13 11:51PM


Just felt it was time for a new post. Hope everyone is doing well. I for one am looking forward to warmer weather. :)

Friday, Friday, Friday...

I am beyond ready to be in IL and spend time with the ones I love. The end.


Well if I had any reservations about leaving Macy's it disappeared today. I have never left a job feeling so unappreciated. Good riddance!! Hoping and praying for a positive, fresh start at Menards. I enjoyed my time with the company when I worked for them a few years ago. It doesn't appear that it has changed a whole lot since. I have the next week off before starting at Menards and plan on cleaning the house and squeezing in some "me" time. I am scheduled 180 hours from Aug. 27th-Sept. 14th. Sixty hours of overtime, yes please! Luckily it is "only" Monday-Friday from 8a-8p. Ecstatic that it is not 6a.m.! ;D What's new with all of you?? :)
  • tab
    Hope Menards is a better experience for you! Enjoy the rest of your time off and your overtime :)
    by tab at 08/22/12 1:43PM
  • kendrad
    WOW! Just now reading this, but I'm hoping now that it's over you have some reprieve. What hours does your husband work?
    by kendrad at 09/14/12 8:52PM