As the day dawns, bright, sunny, warm, and promising of good things, I find my spirits lift. It is hard to stay sad when the enthusiasm of my children drags me up from my slumber and into a more joyful spirit! They are excited!
The table is set in a most festive way. We are prepared to have some fun!
How can one stay sad with the love of God, sweet children, and very dear friends to sustain and lift her spirits?
Have a beautiful day, married or single! It IS a beautiful day!
How do you cope with it?
Some days, the life I have lived and all that I have been through and lost, overwhelms me. Yet, I have this deep sense of needing to be stronger than the loss and the sadness... this feeling that I am not trusting God completely, if I am dwelling on my sadness. Why is that? God gave us our feelings, and He Himself is a God of feelings... so how do I cope with sadness, allow it to be there, and still be all I should be?
I fear that I am struggling internally more than externally. It is easy to put on a smile and tell people I am doing well, because I am. Yet, I do not wake up with joy, I find myself still focusing on many negative aspects of my pain, and still bending people's ears about it more than I feel I should. So how do I cope with it, allow it to be what it is without letting it consume me?
I guess the fact that it is Valentine's Day on Wednesday, that it has been five years since I celebrated a Valentine's Day with my husband, and that I don't even remember the last one we celebrated makes it a very painful thing.
Thanks to my dear aunt, we have made new traditions. Ever since that last one with Chris, she has made it a point to celebrate V-day with us, making little Valentine surprises for the children, etc. Each year since I have lived here, it has happened that she has been with us, so we have continued the tradition. It is sweet, and it helps me cope with the loss, but I still feel sad. Early on, in my struggle to be "okay" I didn't want to be sad or dwell on the loss. I am finding that LOSS WILL BE DEALT with, and it will be dealt with later if you don't do it sooner. I had four babies who needed me. I had no time for grieving. I am grieving now.
Don't get me wrong. I have moved beyond the worst of it all, finally. The worst was last year, when another pain made me face all of my loss. But this year, I find I am just plain lonely as I consider Valentine's Day.
Any advice? I guess I know the answer. I am focusing too much on a material holiday and what it means, instead of on the heavenly things. Please pray for me. But, those of you who do have your honeys on Valentine's Day, truly love them and appreciate them. I would give a year of my life to have one more day with my husband, to tell him what he meant to me, and to tell him all I have learned. I would hold him and not let go.
Since many of you have asked, and my phone has been ringing like crazy, reminding me how LOVED I am, I decided to just write a new post!
For those of you living in this area, I apologize for taking your time.
We are SAFE! I slept through the storm!
Just like at Christmas time, when tornadoes came through this area, our home/yard came through the storm unscathed! We are very thankful, especially after hearing on the news about just how bad it got.
When I retired for the night (around one thirty a.m.), it was pouring rain, as it had been for hours. There had been some pretty constant lightning. Since Lightning and thunderstorms are a major contributor to the origination of tornadoes, the conditions were ripe for trouble!
Still, since thunder and lightning, with pouring rain are pretty common here at times, I went to bed without a care in the world, and slept undisturbed!
I am thankful for all my dear friends who have called, written here to ask, and who have texted me to see if we were okay. We truly are, and most thankful to all of you who care!
So far, all of my checks with members of the church here who might have been affected, seem to be fine! Thank you for asking!
Have a blessed day!
Okay, after hearing about the temps around the country, I guess it is not so cold here, after all! Today, our temps are back up to seventies/low eighties, so who can complain? We are enjoying our usual, bright, beautiful sunshine!
The other day, when I complained, it was windy forties, and very gray.
I love sunshine!
I love summer! I guess I was a summer baby for a good reason! What is your favorite season? I think I moved here so that I could enjoy perpetual summer!
It has been cold here for the last few days. It is very unusual for it to be this cold, this late in January, at least it has been unusual since I have been here.
What are your temperatures?