A great change

It's always nice to get that change in your life that you've been needing. It's refreshing and a new start... a new you... and new beginnings.

So far our move went well. All the furniture is moved and now the rest is up to me -- decorating. Which, I don't mind. I enjoy it and it'll give me something to focus on. There's nothing like moving though, to make you realize how much "stuff" you have that you need to get rid of. Tim's mom is into selling things online and at flea markets so she said she'd help us get rid of a lot of stuff.

Last time we moved... a lot of things happened we had a lot of transitions transpire that took patience I didn't have, faith in God that I didn't have, and faith in my husband that I didn't have. It really tore me down and I had to lift myself up out of that. I learned a lot about my faith in God that I needed to work on, as well as my relationship with Tim that needed work. Thankfully he and I made it passed that and I feel that we are the better for it. However, at the time I was going through my mental crisis I felt as though nothing was worth fighting for. I'm so glad that I have walked that and now I can say "I've been there" and I can see how not reading my Bible daily and not putting God first really effected EVERYTHING.

This time that we're moving... I can't really say the situation is worse, but it's not better. We're not in our own house... we do have a seperate apartment that we don't have to pay rent for... we have a lot of privacy ... but financially we're still not better off. I NEVER thought I would worry about finances I always thought it was a stupid thing to worry about and that I would just always allow my husband to take care of that ... I've never been one of those women who go to the mall and buy the store anyway, so I never had a problem with money. The last couple of months proved me wrong though, when a bill was due and I wasn't sure we could pay it.

Even though things are in the current situation that they are in... and even though our finances aren't where we thought they would be by this time in our marriage.... I can honestly say that I am happy with our decision ... that this is right for us... and that I have NO worries about the future. If God has seen us through from day one of our marriage until now... He's not going to change for He is the same today, tomorrow, and forever.

...and I'm really looking forward to this time that I have to focus on me. I know that may sound selfish... but I have a lot of reuniting myself with God and with myself to do.

OH! and prayers do work! I had a friend visit me right before Tim and I left for SC and she prayed for me before leaving, asking God that there would be someone here that I could relate to. ... We got here and there is a couple who recently moved into the area. Recent converts and have no children. I got to spend some time with them today and they're a very nice couple and we seem to have a lot in common with them... so yay!! :)