I have come to such a better understanding of God's infinite wisdom and finite understanding of this world and it strengthens my faith when I read His word and learn about this world. The beauty that is undeniable is His wisdom and His love that eternal and everlasting is something I am only beginning to grasp. I have learned confidence and what it means to have conviction in God's word and how to divide His word much better than before. After a analyzing the word of God for problems and fallacy, God has shown me through His word that no one can prove without a shadow of a doubt that there is no god, or that the Bible is flawed. Plus, we are finite beings. We can't see everything and understand everything; only God can. I have a much better appreciation for the verse that says, "thy rod and thy staff, they comfort me". Only can God give comfort and correction that is best for us and only God can provide what you need in a way that is just what you need for where you are in life. I have learned more fully how to love others and tell them they need to change at the same time. All of this is because God is omniscient, omnipresent and omnipotent. That is beauty only His child can understand and even that child can't understand fully. I am so so so thankful God gave me time to question and learn and then time to come a state to not doubt Him again.
I know I have written some weird stuff lately. Its just a poetic way for me to express my thoughts about things going on in the world and it always seems to be rather dark. This world is a dark place and come to grips with that is important to me because it will help me not desire to stay here but motivate me to be the person God wants me to be. Have you ever heard the saying,"Be the change you want to see".... or something like that. Well being a christian is only change that will change anything for best and in the right direction. No political movement, no ideology, no secret or public knowledge, no philosophy, no science, no man or anything else can make the difference the difference a christian can because a christian has the truth which should show him the attitude and customs to keep as a servant the One True and Living God. I get angry or sad because all of the above categories sure can mess things up, even if they are just slightly off target, or just slightly wrong. Ignorance of the truth and/or misuse of the truth sure does mess things up and the fact that God has allowed us to do what we will shows me how far we as sheep can and do stray. Just thought I should bring some clarity.
To believe in these people without justification clinches and torments like a canker on the walls of this hopeful belly. No hope can be rested on their head for lack of a spine, lack of truth and loveless appetite. The lies, the fear, the control and the tactics bring them to their knees as they rise to the top of the summit of corruption. The anger burns to see the beauty of the world that is cut down, consumed and to regurgitated for the rest of us. The blessings given only come from the Love that is true and pure. Without that, there is no hope at all.
The iron bars of my mind clinches me within a cell of apathy. The blooms of illusion feel like thorns of a rose bush. The thorns bleeds me dry only to make me aware that knowledge is to act. The need to act requires a reason to act but reason escapes the prison in which I dwell. This dilemma renders my tongue speechless, my muscles atrophied, senses infected, ears suspicious and the will stupefied to shallow, weak, frantic motives of senseless notions. Trust can only defy the bars that bring me to bondage. The cycle of vicious deceit withers when I trust upon careful deliberation. In the end, I must learn to swim in this ocean of chaos and uncertainty. But I must trust and decide to swim or the bottom of these water I will reside, imprisoned to my own sorrow.
...I can't be sure what mysterious things are soon to happen but I can see already how things are moving around and can see new lessons soon to be learned and new situations soon to be realized.