Today is the day...?

Wish me luck.

Prayers would be appreciated too.
  • chessman
    K-Why?
    by chessman at 03/19/10 8:27AM
  • dawnmk23
    New job?
    by dawnmk23 at 03/19/10 10:05AM
  • head_in_a_sunrise
    I don't know what for, but good luck!!
    by head_in_a_sunrise at 03/19/10 10:08AM
  • mischief_mayhem_soap
    Quitting my job on Monday. Talked to the office manager today to give her a heads up and she said she'd come in with me on Monday cause my boss can be difficult.
    by mischief_mayhem_soap at 03/19/10 10:12AM
  • mischief_mayhem_soap
    I don't have another lined up and am wicked scared. But I'm barely making enough to pay for gas to get down here and my school work is suffering greatly. And with my tax return money I will be ok for a while - all my bills are paid up until at least June. So it means less money toward my loan but it also means better health - mental and physical.
    by mischief_mayhem_soap at 03/19/10 10:20AM
  • fullofgrace

    by fullofgrace at 03/20/10 10:26AM

Dreams come true...

As children we have so many dreams and aspirations. Most of which are outlandish and we grow out of. Many of the rest are as reasonable as can be but because of circumstance we are never able to achieve.

At some point I did realize being a faerie and living in a world of dragons would never be possible...at least without some kind of severe mental break(which I haven't entirely ruled out as a reasonable course of action for my future).

So in general we tend to gravitate toward our more "realistic" hopes and dreams.

And then the money for school abroad never comes through.

But no matter what some bits and pieces of our childhood views of ourselves find a way into our grown-up lives.

I remember one of my biggest aspirations as a child was to get mail. I loved to meet the mailman at the mailbox and bring it in with the hope that there would be something for me, which there inevitably was not. Unless it was my birthday at which time I would receive a card from the chiropractor and occasionally from Minnie Mouse or a grandparent or aunt across the country.

I remember telling my parents how I wished I could get as much mail as them.

Sometimes my mother would let me open hers just to put a smile on my face.

But my parents always told me that it's really not very exciting. Most of what they receive is bills and ads. 99% of it just isn't worth having or is truly dreadful to open.

Well today I realized this dream has indeed come true.

And my parents were indeed right.

Why couldn't this be one of those thousands of childhood fantasies that just never came true?

Today's dreams-by-mail included a past due credit card bill that was supposed to be PAID OFF AND CLOSED and a health insurance card with the wrong information on it.

Oh to be so grown up :-/
  • misssonja
    You are beginning to scare me, dear one, for you are too much like me. This post is why I suffer from dread, yea even fear, of approaching the mail box, though my phobia earns me the mockery of many an entertained friend.
    by misssonja at 03/09/10 9:41AM
  • emotionalalienation
    lol....
    by emotionalalienation at 03/09/10 9:51AM
  • chessman
    Sorta like that island in Voyage of the Dawn Treader...
    by chessman at 03/09/10 10:39AM
  • quiltedmama
    I remember one time when I was home from college (so you probably would have been 6) that I let you open some of my junk mail and you had so much fun playing with the papers and envelope- I think you wrote on them and stuffed them back in and put it back in the mailbox! :) You were cute. :)
    by quiltedmama at 03/09/10 11:55AM
  • mischief_mayhem_soap
    Awww, what sweet big sis you were sometimes!
    by mischief_mayhem_soap at 03/09/10 1:32PM
  • chooselove
    of course! i'll see what i can come up with.
    by chooselove at 03/17/10 11:46PM

So-SObama

So I did my taxes this week(still haven't failed but got all the paperwork done) and it's taken a little edge off my hatred for the government. Even though they refuse to give me money for school. And most of my state money is coming back to my pockets instead of toward free abortions provided to the lowest of income women who qualify for free health care with no copays for anything but that's a matter for another post. The government may not have been willing to give me money for tuition but they are redeeming themselve in that the feds are giving me an extra $1,009 back because of all my tuition and supplies. Plus $400 because I didn't get it last year?(Yeah, not really sure about this one but I'm not gonna complain)

The state has been slightly less generous. They are returning about $230 of the $370 I paid in. Oh yeah and they were kind enough not to charge me for my lack of health insurance due to my low income. But not kind enough to give me all my hard earned money back. I also feel about $200 short of the out-of-pocket amount necessary to get any kind of deduction or refund for school.

In conclusion, I heart the Feds. But Mass angers me greatly.

Which evens out to the government, in general, still being a mess. And horribly frustrating.

But I do love the $2,200 they'll be sending me next month :)

Maybe I'll use it to pay 1/5 of the personal loan I had to get to pay for massage school...
  • dawnmk23
    Hurray for helping pay off loans! Believe me, you won't regret it!!
    by dawnmk23 at 03/05/10 8:08AM
  • mischief_mayhem_soap
    Yeah, a chunk of it has to go toward paying off what I owe directly to the school which they have been gracious enough to let me pay off $200/month til now. and couple hundred toward a credit card my parents were kind enough to let me get in their name a while back. But between this and my second accident settlement I should be in OK shape for a little bit. Hopefully long enough to get me my massage lisence and on my feet with that.
    by mischief_mayhem_soap at 03/05/10 8:11AM
  • quiltedmama
    We got back 50% more than we paid in. Yay for lots of kids! I almost feel bad taking money from the fed gov when it's in so much trouble. Almost, but not quite. It was enough to pay off all our debt except for student loans and the mortgage. :) The bad news is, it's only just enough, so we don't get any fun money out of it. :(
    by quiltedmama at 03/05/10 9:52AM
  • quiltedmama
    Did you see my last post of Aeryn?
    by quiltedmama at 03/05/10 10:08AM
  • mischief_mayhem_soap
    Yes, but I have no speakers at work and my Blackberry doesn't show videos on here for some reason. Somebody needs to put together a BB App for Pleo!
    by mischief_mayhem_soap at 03/05/10 10:09AM
  • chessman
    I paid $45 or so in taxes this year, which led to a pretty good refund. But the previous years were even better. Adoption credit and child credit ROCK!
    by chessman at 03/05/10 2:25PM

Powerless

Reports vary greatly but coming into work I heard something like 300,000 people in New Hampshire are without power.

Everyone I know in NH has no power.

Mass has about 85,000 without.

According to my parents we had several power surges at the house while I was at school.

On my drive home the wind almost caused my death several times over, flooding made me wish I had a boat instead of a mini escort.

There was also downed branch with roughly the same diameter as my left thigh all the way across a main street.

Which I couldn't see through the torrential downpours until I was on top of it.

Luckily my car made it though in one, as far as I can tell, intact piece.

So we are fine but MANY are not.

Please pray for our friends and brethren in NH. I don't know how many have power back but I know that a large number still do not.
  • quiltedmama
    Crazy winter, this: blizzards in OK, hurricanes in NE. Blast all that global warming!
    by quiltedmama at 02/26/10 9:48AM
  • chooselove
    i read the title and totally thought this was going to be some deep introspect post about how we're powerless over so many things. i should take things a bit more literally sometimes :P
    by chooselove at 02/26/10 5:24PM
  • mischief_mayhem_soap
    haha, well that's exactly what I was aiming for with the title. I even considered making it some big deep post. But then changed my mind cause those just always seem to cause problems...
    by mischief_mayhem_soap at 02/26/10 6:05PM
  • entropy
    by entropy at 03/01/10 4:39PM
  • chooselove
    ^ nice.
    by chooselove at 03/01/10 7:17PM
  • mischief_mayhem_soap
    hahahaha nice.
    by mischief_mayhem_soap at 03/02/10 5:55AM
  • el_magnifico
    I'll have to check out his other works. Like I say, I've only ever read HHGTTG. Thanks for the tip :-)
    by el_magnifico at 03/03/10 10:36AM

Sometimes

things just suck.

Sometimes, usually in fact, things just don't work out in our favor.

Sometimes everything comes crashing down on us all at once.
(And ya know, it's usually our own fault!)

Sometimes all we want to do is tell the world how bad we hurt so they can understand why we act the way we do.

Sometimes we're so desperate for comfort all we can do is shamelessly spout all of our probelms, pain and fear to anyone and everyone.

Sometimes that really is the best and only thing we can do.

But more often than not it is absolutely the worst course of action possible.

So how do we decipher when each is appropriate?

And more importantly, what exactly is to be done with all the pain and fear if we realize blindly grasping for comfort from the general public is NOT the way to go?

Yes, I know God is always there. He is our only chance of true and lasting comfort.

But what about the times when we just need someone here, someone to tell us it'll all be ok and hold onto us til the horror is over?

Because sometimes we really just need someone to hold onto, a voice in our lives keeping us grouded.
  • chooselove
    you know what else helps keep me grounded? a very smoky group of people talking about God, drinking coffee long past my bedtime, and lots o chocolate.

    but those are kinda hard to find sometimes, too.

    so, you should come here and we should create our own :)
    by chooselove at 02/24/10 10:05AM