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This weekend I had the chance to see John Mayer for a 3rd time. This time he blew all of his other performances out of the water. I loved all of the songs he chose to play and I realized why I keep going back to see him live. He's just a great performer! It was a lot of fun, I went with Beth, Callie, and Emily! It was definitely a nice girls night at the concert! My camera died at the very beginning of John Mayer, but I did get quite a few pictures out of the last drop of battery power I had. I loved it so much, I was seriously tempted to buy tickets and go to Austin tonight or Dallas tomorrow, but I'm being good and not using that money on that so soon, next tour though, I'll be there :)

Spring Break is next week! :-) I, like always, have no plans as of right now. I'm just excited for a break, although I'm not at all worn out from school right now, I really enjoy it. It'll be nice to sleep in for once, and hopefully get a lot done. I may take a little trip, but I'm not positive yet!

Last night I couldn't fall asleep because I had a lot on my mind. I was just thinking about how little people know me. It's funny to me kind of, because people will assume they know how I am, what will offend me, what I can handle, what I like/enjoy, and they're completely off! I guess that's my fault for being pretty closed off with most people. I can think of a few people that know me really well, some of my best friends that have made me open up to them over the years, and know pretty much every aspect of me. Others that know bits and pieces, and that I've opened up to in certain ways, but that I feel still don't know the real me sometimes. I'm good at joking with people and talking about everyday things, or being a listener, but opening up about deeper things is hard for me. I don't like when people "sugar coat" things to me to try not to hurt me, because when I find out things later, it hurts me more. I'm a lot stronger than most people think & can handle things, so it's frustrating when people dont think I can. I've been through a lot more than I know a majority of the people around me even know. I don't feel like I need to explain everything I've gone through though for people to be able to know me. I just had this conversation yesterday with a friend that brought all of this up in my mind, and I couldn't stop thinking about it.

Anyways, I heard this new song by Kesha on pandora the other day at work. I'm not a fan of Kesha, although I'll admit, I do think her songs are addicting and wont change the radio when they come on. She has songs that appeal to a lot of people just because they're "fun" and upbeat, but if we're talking about the talent and musical creativity that went into these songs, there's not much. I can seriously sing her songs just like her, I know, because I've tried. Well, the new song I heard, cracked me up! Why? Mainly because it's so ridiculous! It's called Dinousar. It's talking about an old man hitting on young girls, but the lyrics crack me up for some reason.

I was upset at Jake's decision on the Bachelor, and that's all I'll say about that.

My favorite on American Idol are Casey James, Alex Lambert, Lee Dewyze, and Katelyn Epperly. I think this season has been a lot different than the past. There haven't been any "stand out" amazing voices to me. They're all talented and seem to be unique though. I guess after having Adam Lambert who was a crazy entertainer already on the show last year, it's a bit of a change. AND Ellen isn't getting on my nerves as a judge. I don't approve of her lifestyle, but she's actually adding some good critiques!

I should get back to work, just wanted to waste some time on here, looks like I still have 3 hours left though!

I'm in such a John Mayer mood lately, I wonder if it could have anything to do with the fact that I'm going to see him next Saturday!! :) This will be my 3rd time to see him live & I'm so excited!

I was told I needed to update about my life, so I guess I will.

School is going great right now! I got an above average test grade on my first test in my anatomy class, and an A on my first test in my literature class. I have my lab midterm in anatomy on Tuesday, which is going to be tough, but I think I'll be ready. I feel like I've learned so much this semester already, and I love that. I don't like going through a class feeling like I didn't learn anything, I like to know that I'm actually gaining something from sitting through those lectures & studying. Yesterday I learned why your sweat smells bad in your arm pit area, but the sweat from your forehead, arms, legs, etc doesn't smell. I can explain it to you if you're curious :-P Quite interesting...haha!

I'm running my first 5K of the year tonight, thats right TONIGHT! It's a night time 5K. It's called G.L.O.W. which stands for Giving to Light Others Way. It's an awesome run, it's on the A&M campus and you get to wear glow sticks and a lot of people dress up crazy, it's just a lot of fun! I'm hoping to run a 10K in April, I'll either do one in College Station or in Austin. My favorite coach/the person that made me want to coach told me about one in Austin that I should do & that's where she lives, so I may do that one! THEN if I'm really dedicated and motivated enough, I'll be doing a Half marathon in Huntsville in the Fall. We'll see if I can make it up to that, but I've been wanting to do one for awhile, so hopefully I can!

American Idol is in full swing and I along with millions of other Americans, am already in love with Casey James.

I've just been staying really busy lately, I have a lot going on, but I just can't post about all of it. I'm excited to see where a few things going on in my life right now will go, and not so excited about some other ones, but thats life!

So far 2010 has been great! It's flying by, which isn't so fun, but I've been having a blast this year so far.

I made a pretty huge change this year, and haven't really told many people yet, but I think it's time to post about it. As most of you know I grew up wanting to be an Aggie. It has been my goal since forever. Well, last year I made it there, and was so excited!! I was taking some medicine starting in February '09 for something, but it was actually a depressant. It helped me with certain things, but effected my mood, motivation, appetite, and a lot of other stuff. I wasn't motivated in school and I wasn't happy at A&M. I took an Anatomy & Phisiology class there this summer, which was a bad idea on my part. It's probably the toughest class I have to take for my major and I took it in the summer, while still being on the medicine and dealing with a lot of personal things that really brought me down. I didn't do as well in that class as I know I could have, so it set me back to transfer out of General Studies into Kinesiology. I took more classes this past Fall, was finally off of the medicine, was more motivated, but realized I still wasn't happy with the way things were going. I didn't enjoy my classes, and felt like I was being forced to go to classes that I dreaded. In November I started thinking about different options. I applied to Sam Houston just incase I wanted to leave A&M after the Fall semester was over. I took a lot of time to myself in December to think about my decision, and finally realized A&M may not be what's best for me. Maybe my whole life I just told myself that's what I wanted, when in reality, I have always wanted to do something different. No one forced me to go to A&M, but growing up in this town with most of my friends going there, I just had this mentality that that's what I wanted. In early January I went to visit Sam Houston in Huntsville, and absolutely loved it there. I talked to advisors about the University and it sounded like it fit exactly what I REALLY wanted.

So, I transferred to Sam this Spring, and have been there this whole semester. I haven't told many people because I don't want negative comments. I didn't want people getting the wrong idea. I love A&M, love the school, love the town, I just needed a change to make sure I was happy and achieving the best success school wise that I could. I needed something different than the ordinary thing that I grew up thinking was best for me. I also wanted to make a choice on my own for once in my life, without being persuaded by anyone around me. It felt great, too! :)

I love Sam Houston!! I haven't regretted my decision yet. I've made so many friends there already, because everyone is so friendly! I'm actually learning things and have been motivated so far. I'm not a "number" at Sam, but I'm my own person. My largest class is 150 students and that prof is awesome and gets everyone involved still. My other classes are 18-30 people, and I think thats so cool! I think this was the best deicion I've made for myself in a really long time! I'm so much happier at school now, and I don't want to hide it anymore! :)

If you're thinking any negative things like "why would she leave A&M, for Sam" please don't tell me. Yes A&M is a wonderful University, and I would've loved to stay there, but with how unhappy I was, I knew I needed a change, and am sooo glad I did!

Well, I hope everyone is having a great week! :)

We're having a gospel meeting right now with Wilson Adams. All of his lessons from the Friday night devo & all 3 Sunday have been great, but tonight, was indescribable. Before services tonight, I honestly wasn't sure if I wanted to go to the meeting, I was having "one of those days" where you just are down. Which is weird, because lately I've been in a really good mood. For some reason, I just started thinking back on things that had been bringing me down the past year, and I was in a "mood." Well, let me just say, that sermon was for me, tonight. I wish EVERYONE could have been there, literally everyone.

Brother Adams lesson was on struggles, and how we all have them. It was from 1 Peter 1:3-9. He went over 4 truths about trials: 1. Trials are necessary 2. Trials are distressing 3. Trials come in various ways 4. Trials have a purpose. I wish I could type out the whole sermon for you, but I can't.

While a lot of you know that I've been through a lot the past year, most of you don't know details, although I can think of 3 people that may read this that know details. During the trials I was facing, at times I felt like it was impossible to go on, I didn't see the light. Since then things have gotten better, easier, and I have seen growth, but that doesn't mean I don't deal with new trials everyday, or think back on those things when I'm reminded of them constantly. The thing is though, we all have trials, although they are all different, we all struggle with something, and all need encouragement.

This sermon was perfect, not because of who was saying it, but because it was the TRUTH from God's word, and it pierced my heart. I started tearing up half way through the sermon, because I was making it personal. At the end, he mentioned when he did something different for the invitation one time, and just told anyone that needed encouragement to go forward, he wouldn't ask questions, that they'd just pray. That's exactly what happened tonight too. Slowly I watched a few people go forward, and I just got this gut feeling in me, that that's what I've been needing to do as well, I just let my pride get the best of me, and didn't want people to know I need help. We sang two invitation songs, I couldn't sing during either, and was crying during both (if you know me, that means something...I don't cry) When they started the second song, I was shaking and put down my book, and joined around 10-15 of my brothers & sisters in Christ on the front rows. How comforing.

Tonight I could see the power of God working, everyone felt like a family there tonight, and that's exactly how it should be. I want all of you to know, I need prayers and encouragement, but also want you to know, I'm praying for y'all as well, because although I may not know your individual struggles, like you don't know mine, we all have them, and can all use encouragement.

I didn't post this for a pity party at all, because I hate those! (and like was said in the sermon, we all have unique struggles, just because someone is dressed up & smilng, doesn't mean they're not dealing with anything) I just posted this, because I was really moved tonight, and couldn't help but want to share.
If that sermon is posted online, I'll definitely put the link on here.