It's been around two weeks now that i've had some sort of sickness. It's getting better and I think I'll go to school tomorrow. I stayed home today and yesterday, and didn't miss school. If we were in Rhode Island I know I would've tried to go no matter what because I never wanted to miss a day being without my friends. In Ohio, it's harder because I'm new and don't have many friends but I'm working on my grades a lot more and getting honors, so it has it's pros and cons. I was tested for mono, strep, virus, everything but it was all negative so I'm on antibiotics. I had a really bad sore throat, and a lot of congestion but, it's getting better. :)

I guess a lot has happened from the last post, and I guess this is where my reflection starts...

It is very hard to find a girlfriend that is a christian. I can't thank this person enough for helping me out throughout the move. I know that I would've been very depressed without my friends but I had someone and that made everything that much better. She also brought me closer to God which I can't thank her enough. There are many other things but, those are the main ones. The relationship we shared fell apart(I don't feel the need of explaining everything)and we broke up. While we were friends we fought a lot, and every day seemed to bring another argument. Needless to say it was not fun nor healthy. At this point, we are no longer best friends, or friends for that matter. In the past, when something like this happened it took me a year and sometimes never again did I talk to the other person. This is different. I am going to be more mature about this and if she decides to talk to me I will talk to her and not completely ignore her. I can't help but think maybe this is for the best. I believe we need time apart and in the future a great friendship is NOT out of the question. It's just at this point every attempt made towards good turns bad. So ultimately, I decided this is the only thing to do. People change and I've accepted that. I will not forget the memories and the awesome times we shared. And I will always be thankful to this person. There's a lot more to be said on this but, for your(the reader's)sake I'll just leave it at that.

Throughout this time, I played ALOT of guitar and wrote several good songs and yesterday wrote one that I'm really enjoying the shape it's taking. AND! I found a kid at school who plays acoustic and we're going to jam and see what happens. I really hope we start a band, I miss jamming with friends up in Rhode Island every day. Christmas time is coming, and this year I'm asking my parents for a mandolin :) Sorry this post was really long, but that was basically the past month or so of my life. When you never update, I guess the post has to be long. I hope everyone is doing well and staying warm!

-Matthew

"Complete and total adoration, my gift to you, my heart was yours. In ten weeks you shaped it, in one night you murdered it.
Torn from my chest and laid at your feet, that first step that you took was the worst. Since then you've walked a thousand miles in solace and short remark, and I still have these memories, but we'll never see what we could have been.

Remember when we talked about where we'd be a year from now?
Remember when you held my hand like you'd never let it go?
Remember, cause that's all you can do.
We'll never make another memory,
We'll never make another memory.

I wish I'd have died in your arms the last time we were together,
So I wouldn't have to wake without you today. This time I thought things were real. You said they were. What happened?
You were a priority, Was I an option?

I let you see a side of me that I don't share with anyone.
Promises are just words unless they are fulfilled.
you knew from the beginning all I had to offer you was my heart,
I'm sorry that wasn't enough.

So, we'll go our own ways, And hopefully you'll remember the things I've told you, hopefully you'll understand that everything I said was in sincerity. A broken heart is not what I wanted from this, But I guess I've learned from it. But aren't you supposed to learn from your mistakes? I don't consider this a mistake, I just wish the story didn't end this way, Cause I'm still in love with the person who helped me write it.

Remember when you held my hand like you'd never let it go? Remember when we talked about where we'd be a year from now?"

Across Five Aprils-A Year From Now

I'm done with this. I never keep up with it like I should. It always happens the same way...I always think, well, this time is different and i'm going to make entrys and keep everyone updated. But, we all know that never happens. I realize that if I say this time is different and i'm going to start it up again, this will be the third time and there's no way that's going to happen. I'm not going to completely erase it, i'll still keep it and come on from time to time and comment people, but don't expect entries. I might add an entry to update everyone, but at this rate I dont know when i'll ever update. I hope everyone is doing well and i'll talk to you all later.

...I told you all I'm terrible about updating, what did you expect? I guess I just need to be told to update and I might. Anyways, I guess a lot has been going on since...Krysta's update. Summer has come and gone, and this was an awesome summer I must admit. Sure, I had to adjust to Ohio after leaving my home in Rhode Island but, someone made it a WHOLE lot easier- Krysta thank you for everything, this summer would have sucked without you and I can't thank you enough...you're an amazing girlfriend and I could not be any happier. Lately I've been writting a lot of music for this acoustic project I'm starting and hanging out with Krysta quite a bit. School started and I guess I like my classes but, I dont have like any friends. There's this one guy I'm friends with and that's pretty much it. Hopefully school will get better...Anyways, I'm really excited because I finally ordered my Digital 8 Track Recording studio and it will be at my house tomorrow sometime. In other news, my grandfather was released from the hospital today I think and the nurses were amazed that he recovered...she said something like most people his age never walk again and now he is able to put pressure on both feet- *AWESOME news.* and my grandmother is doing alot better too! :) OH YEAH! I got this card in the mail from my uncle(the one that baptized me) last week and I had no idea why he would send me a card...so, I opened it and it was a card wishing me a happy first spiritual birthday. I was like WOAH! i've been a christian for a year...it feels like I have been for like 6 months. So, that was pretty exciting...I think i got the card August 23 or something(old news). Anyways, I'm gonna have to end this long post. I hope all is well with everyone...leave comments :)

-Matthew

heyhey, its me updating for him..lol. he never updates so i decided i would do it for him :) hmm well his friends from rhode island were here for like a week. *tyler and heather* well, heather was there for melissa. but yeah..they went to kings island and the mall and the boone county fair and i'm pretty sure they had a really great time together! they went home saturday and now these people are visiting them, they are the Labranche's (i think thats how you spell it..?) yep so thats pretty cool. he was sick sunday =( so he didnt go to church and that was pretty depressing..BUT he's alllllll better now and probably wont get sick again for a long time :)! lalalaaa OH he likes to make fun of me bc i get excited over toothpaste and i get sad when i lose my retainer. lol..he got his schedule and he has like 3 art classes. but yeah he can tell yall about that when he updates. cuz once he sees this he will probably delete it and write his own stuff, lol. so yeahhh byebye!! leave him some comments ;)