This is the word that is foremost in my mind lately.
I'm feeling nostalgic. I've always been sentimental, especially regarding old, antique or historic things.
This is different. I am feeling nostalgia for a time in my past. I guess it's because my kids are all getting older and my time with them seems to be fading out so quickly.
I've been off Pleonast for years but today nostalgia brought me back. Facebook has its advantages, but I miss the blog format and also Pleonast seems like a safe little cubby hole away from the world.
I'm not saying I'm back - I'm not even sure who is still here.
But I love going back and reading old posts from a certain time and place in my life that I am feeling homesickness and nostalgia for.
So...who is here?
After many interruptions I finally finished Great Expectations, by Charles Dickens, this afternoon.
I realized after reading it that I was feeling very agitated. I tried to analyze the reason for my agitation and it was that I was dying to discuss the book with someone, and upon further analyzing, realized it was because that someone was my dad. That so very much stinks.
So, since I can't call him and chat with him about the thoughts swirling around in my head, I will ask you one of the questions I have been stewing about. Those of you who have read the book...do you prefer the original ending, or the revised ending?
I am not sure how I feel about it yet. Probably because I haven't yet settled on how I feel about Estella. Lots to process there.
Any thoughts on the book itself? Miss Havisham? I'm sure we could talk for weeks just on Miss Havisham alone.
Any good BBC adaptations you especially love?
It's hard to be an inspiring facilitator of home education when you're getting sick.
So, what to do to save my voice but still feel like I've accomplished something from the day? I remember that it is $5 movie day (except I found out when I got there that they've jacked the price up to $6) and that we have wanted to see the movie Courageous. We knew we would like it because we've liked every movie we've seen by Alex and Stephen Kendrick, the producers of Flywheel, Facing the Giants and Fireproof (there may be more I'm forgetting).
While those were all wonderful movies, Courageous trumps them all. It was outstanding. I felt fear, sadness, grief, happiness, provocation, suspense-you name it, I think I felt it today during that movie.
There were many themes woven throughout the movie but the prevailing theme was biblical fatherhood and as an extension, biblical parenting.
If I could somehow pay for everyone to see this movie, I would. I think it is that important. I will be going back to see it-not just to monetarily support a film like this in the face of modern Hollywood, but just to sit and be reminded again of how important the message is.
Even though we know how important and holy the job of raising children is, it is so easy to forget as we get caught up in the day-to-day stress of life. I know that I will be watching this movie many more times in the future for those times that I've lost sight of what I'm really doing here on earth as a mother of children.
Go watch this movie!! Tell others about it.
"Your spouse and your children are not just people, they are eternal beings with spirits. What we do in our homes is so much more important that just parenting. We are given charge over an eternal soul. When we interact with our child, we are talking and communicating to a spiritual being."
~ Nicholeen Peck
"That was a memorable day to me, for it made great changes in me. But it is the same with any life. Imagine one selected day struck out of it, and think how different its course would have been. Pause, you who read this, and think for a moment of the long chain of iron or gold, of thorns or flowers, that would never have bound you, but for the formation of the first link on one memorable day."
~Great Expectations, by Charles Dickens
That, my friends, is some fine writing. I loved that sentence. It gave me, as Anne Shirley would say, a thrill when I read it.
There is a reason some books are classified as classics.
That is all. :)
I mentioned awhile back that I was seeing a special doctor about hormone imbalance. I knew that I was estrogen dominant/progesterone deficient. Today I got results back from blood and saliva tests done over a month or so ago. Turns out, my thyroid is just fine. Yay! But the reason I thought it was low thyroid was because hormone imbalance mirrors the same symptoms as low thyroid. But the bigger thing the tests showed today is that I have next to no testosterone. Yeah, I know, that's mostly for the guys, right? Well, turns out we ladies need it too. It's pretty important, actually. I was also very deficient in DHEA, which supports testosterone.
What's the big deal if your testosterone and DHEA are too low for too long? Well, it's like waving a red flag at cancer, diabetes and heart disease saying, "Please!! Please!! Here I am! Come get me!" So...I'm pretty glad I caught it early.
The main point here is you just don't know until you get it checked. And the thing is, most women start experiencing some level of hormone imbalance when they hit their 30s. I feel pretty certain I was starting to get little signs of it a few years after moving to TN. And then I drove my adrenals into a tail spin my last couple of years there with the stress of having Trina, my dad's illness and death, my skin cancer and surgery, the whole homeschooling/public schooling dilemma and finally our move, among other things. Stress is bad news for us, ladies!! We have to eliminate the stressors in our lives. It leads to bad, bad things.
Talking with my doctor today I am convinced that most of us are walking around with major hormone imbalance but we just don't know it or we know something is off, we just don't know what to do about it!! So...get checked!!