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God works in mysterious ways, He knows what is best for me, and He will help and guide me through whatever comes my way! He will not challenge me over what I am capable of, and for that I am definitely grateful!

On Monday I am leaving for a month, maybe a bit longer. I am not going to college right now, I am in the process of thinking about my college options and figuring out what is best for me and what will help me the most! I am leaving Monday for Utah, I think Salt Lake City, and going to be doing a Wilderness retreat there for a while. Personal Growth, learning about myself, challenign myself to new heights. :) It is a scary thing for me, leaving home, doing something I have NEVER done before, going out to a new state that I have NEVER been to. I am so scared, nervous and apprehensive. But I am also excited. i am excited for the new experience, excited for the change, and am getting close to being ready for it, mentally, not physically. I have a lot of emotions going through me right now, but know with God's help ALL is possible and I can do ALL THINGS through Him! He will be with me, and protect me. And will guide me through it all. I just ask for prayers for me, but not only me, but for my mom and dad, and especially Emma. Because this not only affects me, but them as well. And it will be hard for them too. This is something different for all of us, and it will be hard at times, and challenign. But in the end I know it will be rewarding. :)

God will help me, and get me through this, and even though it is scary and different and new for me, I will be able to come out on the other side. On the finish line, and be ready to move on with the rest of my life. :)

On this retreat I will be: Hiking, Camping, Canoeing, Cave exploring and a bunch of other neat and new things for me. OH, biking too. :) I will be busy everyday, and WILL NOT have my cell phone, computer, Itouch, any electronics. I will not be in touch with the internet world for a while, which admittedly, is what I need :p This is a chance for me to grow, for me to figure out who I am and what I want to do. And it is something that will help me in the long run!

I appreciate all the support I have already received, and will hopefully continue to receive! It means SO MUCH to have family, friends and fellow brothers and sisters in Christ, who love me and support me in all my endeavors! I love you all and if you have ANY questions feel free to email me or message me by phone, facebook etc.

I love you all, and thank you for the support and love you show!

God bless you ALL!!! :) :)

~Maegan

"God is the Potter, not Harry!" ~Unknown

So, after a long extended period of time, I finally decided to check Pleonast again. Lots of things have happened, and I will try not to make a long post. I am also sorry that I have not been on here
as much as I would like. I wanted to keep you updated on my college life here at Texas State, but things have been CRAZY!!! :/

Firstly, and I guess the biggest event of the last month, I have mono and strep...yeah, not a fun combination. I have had mono for about a couple of weeks the doctor says, but it has been torture,
mainly because I cannot do everything that I want to do anymore. Which if you know me, is super de duper frustrating. Don't know why I used the word "super de duper" :p But I am starting, slowly, to get better and I have a feeling I will be back to 100% after the holidays. :) But this last month has been a bit terrible for me. :/

Secondly, Eli and I are celebrating 3 months together today! It is amazing that this much time has passed already. Though I know that 3 months is not really that long, but for me it is definitely something. He is an amazing person and he is truly an awesome guy to have around. :) Sure, he drives me crazy sometimes, and we have our disagreements, but I can't complain, because he is an asset to me! :) He spent Thanksgiving break with my family and I, and that was a blast. Oh, and we totally PWNED him at Mexican Train, but don't bring it up, because he will get mad!! :) teehee!!! But it was so much fun to be able to spend Thanksgiving with him and to have him be with my family! :) Christmas will be a little different, and he is not happy about it, but he can just get over it!!!

Thirdly, Finals week started this week, actually Wednesday. Dead week was Tuesday and then finals started yesterday. I have taken two finals and have one more to go. Yesterday was Spanish 3, and it was ok. I don't want to jinx it, but it was an intense final. Had to write an essay about your perfect partner, it was fun and a little challenging! :) But I hope I can pull a good grade in this class. I need it, so I don't have to deal with the teacher again...I took my Stats final today, and I am not as confident about it. It was a lot harder than I was expecting and this class has been intense. So hopefully I can pull out a good grade in Stats as well. Next Wednesday I take my Bio final. I am definitely worried about that one, but I will be studying for this one over the weekend in the great CP and it should help. But this week has been stressful.

Lastly, remember the service fraternity I pledged to? Alpha Phi Omega? As of Sunday night I am now an active of Alpha Phi Omega! :) It took a lot of hard work, especially with the mono, but it was worth it! Initiation was interesting, all the officers were wearing robes that almost looked like Lord Voldemort, minus them being blue. But it was fun! We went to dinner afterwards and that was also fun! :) Saturday night we have a formal, and that is where we present our BIGS the paddles we made them. :) And they present us with our first letters!!! It is gonna be fun and I cannot wait to see how my BIG likes my paddle...that I haven't exactly done yet, but it is gonna look awesome! Overall this semester has been interesting, definitely ups, definitely downs, but I can't complain about everything. :)

So that is what has been going on in my life the past month or so! :) I know I am not friends with many people on here, and that not many people will read this. But whatevs. Whoever reads this I hope you enjoy this. :)

-Phil 4:13

~Maegan
  • mladyman
    Sorry you've been so sick; our whole family has been praying for you!!! But it sounds like you have kept busy in spite of it! Hope you can get lots of rest at home during the holidays, and GET WELL!!!!
    by mladyman at 12/09/10 9:49PM

Matthew 7:21

Howdy to everyone out here in Pleo world! There are not many of us left, or at least, I am not friends with many yet, but for those who still use this, and for those who read this still,
I congratulate you! :) I know sometimes my post can be a long ramble, and tedious. So congrats if you read all this, I must say I am very impressed. :)

--TEXAS STATE--

Today is October 17, 2010, and I am already saying this...I AM SICK OF SCHOOL!! Really, I am. I am not taking very many interesting classes, except for my Mass Media class, and
the teachers cannot teach. Which makes it hard to learn. I am bored of Biology, where he is constantly pushing Evolution down my throat, of my Stats teacher, who tells us to call
her ridiculous names, and teaches in a monotone voice, and Spanish 3 which is just hard in general, and the teacher is mean and boring!!! I want to start my Journalism classes, to
get into the "meat" of what I will be doing hopefully the rest of my life. But nope, STILL taking my basics. :(

But I am starting to sorta see the light at the end of the tunnel, because it is October, and classes will end in December. So only a couple of more months to endure. Hopefully I can
survive!! But I have friends, family and Eli, to get me through! :) :)

Speaking of school and majors, I had an advising session with my Journalism advisor, and he gave me a couple of intersting options for a minor. Tell me what you think. He first
suggested Political Science, which I am not interested in at all. But maybe one of yall can convince me to rethink about it :)

The other minor he suggested, which is what I am thinking might be really cool to minor in, would be Criminal Justice. A guy from Northwest has a major in Crim Justice, and he LOVES
it. And it is practical for a Journalism major, since I hopefully will be covering that aspect of it. But who knows, and again, let me know what you think. :)

--Alpha Phi Omega--

Something new has happened since my last post, I have joined a fraternity here on Texas State. And no, it is not a fraternity with all guys, it is a co-ed fraternity that is based on The Boy Scouts of America. The main aspect of APO is service, and we do a bunch of service projects and also social events. I bet you would not be surprised to find out that Eli was part of the reason I joined. He told me about it, and I liked it. I didn't join just because of him, but he was definitely a part of it. I am not part of the fraternity yet, I am a pledge. I have to get 30 volunteer hours, and then 10 social hours, after that I will be an active :) I am super excited, and I LOVE the group, everyone is super nice! :) And friendly! And helpful!!! :) :)

--Eli :) --

Hehe, yall can skip past this part if you wish, but speaking of Eli, we have officially been together for a month! :) It has been exciting, challenging at times, but very great to have a guy like him! :) It is wonderful to have such a great support, and someone who cares about you so much, I feel so fortunate and grateful to have a guy like him. For our 1 month, I took him to Kobe Steakhouse, he had never been there before, and he LOVED it! :) He is a cook, and he really enjoyed watching the chefs make the food. It was very fun, and I always love Japanese Steakhouses!! :) :)

--Church--

Church is going well, I am still loving the people at San Marcos Church of Christ! :) They are all very supportive of me, and very helpful to a college student down here! :) I am having a bible study with my preacher, Mr. Slover, on the book of Luke and Acts. It is called "Preaching Jesus." It is very beneficial and I am learning a lot of new things I had never thought of before. :)

I think that covers everything, I have been very busy and haven't had a lot of time, so it will most likely be a while before I update again! I hope everyone here is doing well and is staying busy. I am also enjoying the fallish weather outside, finally! :) I will be in Cedar Park again in a couple of weeks, for a friends wedding shower, which I am super excited for!!! :) :) Until then, peace out! :)

~Maegan

"Do not be afraid of tomorrow, God is already there!"

Wow, I have not been on here in ages. I have been pretty busy here at Texas State. :) I am really starting to get a feel for this whole college thing, and I am enjoying it for the most part.
Here are a few things that have happend since the last time we have chatted.

1. Got sick :( (I am getting better, slowly but surely)
2. Considering a new minor (maybe in Sociology or Psychology: What do yall think about that?)
3. Got a boyfriend (He is amazing and awesome!!!) :) :) :)
4. Took my first test, in Biology
5. Got locked out of my room

There is definitely more I just can't remember them right now. But overall it has been a pretty good week here! The weather is finally starting to get a little cooler which is nice, so I am not
sweating when I walk to my classes. :)

Hope everyone is well! :)

Maegan
  • mladyman
    Get well soon, sweetie!
    by mladyman at 09/20/10 7:32PM

Isaiah 41:10

Not gonna lie, I am feeling a little bit alone. Granted, I should be happy, because I am going home tomorrow. But I feel alone, I feel like I am one of the few people trying to do good
and I feel like one of the few Christians. I love my suitemates and all, don't get me wrong, because they are really sweet girls, we have already had some good times here in the dorm,
and I am sure there are more to come later. BUT...

Two of my suitemates have joined a sororiety, and they both got in, so they will be out all hours, partying and doing who-knows-what. Well I do know what, I just hope they won't,
but sadly I think they both will. I definitely know ONE of them will. My other suitemate did not join a sororiety, BUT she also goes out at night, and does who-knows-what. Which again
I know what that is, and hope she doesn't, but most likely she will. And I know I do not have to be "best friends" with them, and that we cannot possibly spend every second with each
other. But that is really not my problem.

I also know it has only been about two weeks since I have been here on campus, and I will continue to make friends as the school year progresses. I hope to make the University Star,
and if/when I do I hope to meet some nice Journalist there as well. And just through classes and such I have met a few people. Even in general, the general population of Texas State are
different than me. I have met some very interesting people here, and it just makes me wonder, what they think of me. I have to wonder, what my suitemates might say about me behind
my back, or maybe this is me being paranoid?? maybe...but it still makes me wonder, because they know I don't drink, I don't party. I go to church, and I don't use bad language etc etc.
I sometimes see them making funny faces at me, and I personally feel awkward. Maybe this is all in my head, I don't know. But I feel weird. And it makes me wonder whether my suitemates
really like me. Not that it should matter what they think, I am primarily here for school, to learn, to get my bachelors in Journalism. I am not here to try to please other people. But I do want
people to like me. I care what others think, again, even though I shouldn't. And I feel like they look down on me, or just laugh behind my back, because I don't want/do what they do.

A couple of my suitemates are trying to get me to party with them, they keep saying that they are going to throw a party for me, I think for my birthday, and they want me to drink. I keep
telling them no, that I don't want to do that. But they are insisting. I tell them I will lock myself in my room (thank goodness for my OWN room). I just feel like an oddball. And truthfully I
miss Florida College, because there, I didn't have to worry about this kind of thing. I didn't have to worry about my suitemates/roommates going out and partying all night. I didn't have to
worry about dirty language and all the other earthly things. I was surrounded by people who shared my Faith, and my belief in Jesus. And I miss THAT!!! One of my suitemates was asking
me about the other college I attended, and I was telling her about it. And she asked me why I chose to come here and not go back to Florida. And while I was telling her, it made me miss
everyone/everything about Florida. I miss all my friends who I met/had there, David, Stefan, Natalie, Madeline, Stefanie etc etc. I miss the AWESOME teachers who were spiritually minded
and taught things from God's perspective, and NOT man's!!! I miss everything about it, and part of me really wishes I was back with everyone there.

Here my teachers are different, most of them are nice, but they are teaching from a worldly perspective. My biology teacher is pushing Evolution, my Mass Comm teacher is showing us
videos that are innappropriate, not so much the content, but dirty language and things that I don't feel comfortable watching. It is a little discouraging to me, to be here in such a worldly
environment. But I know I can't change it, and maybe, just maybe there are other people like me, who share somewhat of the same faith as I do. And maybe I shouldn't be feeling this
way because there ARE others. That I am not the only good person here. I know I can't get out of the world, but I DON'T have to be like them. And I know I am not the ONLY person
who is trying to do what is right, but it feels that way. I know that I can be a light to others, and that no matter where I am, there are always going to be bad influences around me. But
it is still so discouraging. And it makes me wonder what has happened? Even though things like this happend way back in the times of Noah, I have to wonder, what happened. Why do
people act the way they do. And why must I have to put up with it.

The only time I really feel at home, in my element is when I am at church, at San Marcos Church of Christ! Everyone there has been so friendly and welcoming and has made the transition
to Texas State so much easier! I feel so comfortable and in my element at church, and I really enjoy my time with fellow Christians!!! I love worshipping God with them, and just getting to
talk with each of them. They genuinenly care about me and it makes me feel good. Like the whole world isn't so bad afterall. In fact whenever I leave the building, and come back to San
Jac, I am sad, because I am no longer with Christians, I am back "into the world." Sam has also been making me feel at home, and texts me every now and again to be sure I am ok. And
he helped me when I was having car trouble, which was amazing!!! :) :) But overall the best time/experience has been when I am at church! I LOVE my church family!!!

I guess I shouldn't let these things bother me, I feel bad for ranting about this, for saying how lonely I am and "who es me" and all that. I do LOVE college, and most of my classes, but that
was one thing I did notice, that it was SO Much different than F.C. And how much I do miss it. How I wish I could be back there with everyone, and to see my friends again. But maybe with
time, I will start to meet some friends here, who are somewhat like me. Things will get better, I know they will, I just have to wait, be patient, and that is soooo hard for me. I am not the
most patient person ever. But I am trying.

And I know with God's help, "I can do ALL things through Christ who strengthens me." ~Phil 4:13. I have scriptures posted in my room, bathroom to remind me of who I am. And to remind
me that God is with me. My mom also made my dad today, when I found she had sent me a card. Though she sent it last week, but I had problems with my mailbox. So I just got it today,
but it was just what I needed. :) I love my mom!!! She is great! :)

Sorry about this long, whiny post. I promise I won't do this again. Just needed to write some things out, get my thoughts out on paper, and this helped!!! :) Hope you all have a nice
weekend!! :) And Friday! I love you all!!

~Maegan
  • mladyman
    Oh, Maegan, my heart breaks for you. I know this is a very tough time for you. You are used to being surrounded by godly people, and now you are out in the world, and that's difficult. Just try to keep these thoughts in mind: You have a wonderful opportunity to influence those folks around you. It's possible the only Christians they know are the caricatures they see on TV and movies, and so often those are bigoted idiots. You can show them God's light. It will take time; it might take all year; but your good influence and strong morals will make an impression. Just keep being your friendly, wonderful self. They might be talking about you right now, but it may be because they are feeling uncomfortable (knowing they are not doing right), or maybe they just don't believe you are real yet, or they may even think YOU are judging THEM and they are defensive. Just keep being your sweet self, and you will win them over. Who knows, maybe God placed you right where you are so you can influence them.

    You are very fortunate. You have a good relationship with the Lord. You have absolutely wonderful parents who gave you a strong background, and you've got a good congregation to be with. Use those tools to make it through. Focus on what you are accomplishing. I'm sorry the classes are worldly, but, honestly, what did you expect? That's the way the world is. Tuck your head under, grit your teeth, and do what you have to do to get a good grade and get out of there.

    Keep writing these long posts -- you are a writer, and that's how writers vent -- cheaper than a therapist! Ha! Keep praying. Phone your mom. And remember you have lots of friends and family here in Austin who love you and pray for you! You can do this.

    Happy birthday, sweetie.
    by mladyman at 09/03/10 6:58AM
  • sjean
    Hi. I came over from ^her page. She is my sister in law. So many people say that college is exposure to real life. I say it is so different from the rest of the world. Many immature people are thrown into a world where they are making their own decisions and many are not great as you pointed out. Also for some reason college faculty tends to be more liberal thinking than even the average folks. Martha has some great advice. I even think if there is any way to get into an apartment with a christian you can not only save a bunch of money, you can get away from all the garbage of dorm life. I hope things get better as you find the friends that are really trying to do the right thing. They are feeling as out of place as you. You can show others that you can have a bunch more fun without alcohol and you don't have a hangover in the morning.
    by sjean at 09/03/10 10:53AM