05/08/08 6:28PM

this has not been my best week yet
my best friend and boyfriend have been spending so much time together it makes me so mad. i admit im jealous of her. shes almost absolutely perfect. he seems to be all happy around her and never stops to give me the time i think he should. I get mad at him when he tries to give me attention afterwards because i think he should go out of his way more then he does.

my best friend and i aren't speaking to each other. i jumped her the other day because i felt she should know how i feel. i should have trusted her with my boyfriend. i call her my best friend and i didn't show it at all and was quick to judge her around my boyfriend. i need to work on that. she exploded on me but i do not think i wouldn't have done the same thing. i told her she was my best friend then turned around to tell her i felt she should stop talking to my boyfriend cause something just might happen.

yesterday a friend of mine wrote me and asked me to stop talking to her boyfriend too. i felt the hurt. we only talk through instant message and she said that we were talking way too much that something could happen. Over the internet? Why was I so quick to judge my best friend now that I've been put in the same situation?

And it started off with jealousy and it started off with not trusting people around me when of course i was covering it up saying i wanted us all to be cautious.

...Lindsay
  • sarah_seaton
    Hey Lindsay. I know I said forever ago that I wouldnt come on your blog anymore, but I came across your name and thought I'd see how you were doing. I hope you dont still feel bad towards me. At the time that the drama -or whatever- happened, I was an emotional teenage bride and I probably went overboard, so I hope that you dont feel bad towards me. But I read your blog and just had to comment :)

    I just read your blog, and I really hope that things get worked out. I dated this guy, and a friend of mine persuaded him that she was better for him than me... That relationship between my ex and ex friend didnt work out (to which, I have to admit I was quite glad about). That might have been another reason why I had been upset forever ago, because I had this great fear that the same would happen with Tim, and that I wouldnt survive it... because I had mental breakdowns and everything with the ex. So, you're right in wanting to be cautious. And keep it up, because of the guy doesnt show interest in you and can't give you the attention you want/need/deserve, then he *might* not be worth it. Because if he doesnt give you attention now, he wont when/if you marry. ... But again, I hope it works out between you and your boyfriend :) I know it'll all work out. Hang in there!
    by sarah_seaton at 05/08/08 7:27PM
  • just2seeusmile
    Wow, yeah its been hard keeping up with all my friends.. sometimes I get depressed because i get blamed if I dont go out of my way to contact a big majority of my friends first. With one of me and so many friends its just very hard to live my life and keep everyone updated with what is going on (especially over the moving deal), pack and still try to be a good housekeeper , wife and spend time to my husband..

    about your situation, I don't know what to say, just be cautious but be open minded. Sometimes ppl find ppl they click with as friends better then others.. if your best friend can open more with your b/f and they both say nothing is going on, all you can do right now is trust them until they can prove different. Although your best friend may not be getting from you don't take it personal. Try to be understanding and in time I'm sure things will settle. Sometimes as woman we over react some situations-- my best friend always told me "brandy choose your battles wisely". ITs true if you nitpick or make a deal over something that shouldnt be you may end up losing your bf and bf in the long run. Be patient and understanding and like I said before, until they give you more reason to not trust them just leave it in Gods hands..
    Many times we try to take God's job into our hands and it over welms and stresses us out... it doesnt have to be this way ;)

    Did this help girl?
    by just2seeusmile at 05/08/08 8:16PM
  • lonelyhearted
    It's okay :) And you are so wise!!
    by lonelyhearted at 05/08/08 8:20PM
  • just2seeusmile
    far from it ;P
    by just2seeusmile at 05/08/08 8:21PM
  • lonelyhearted
    ..its good to talk to you again!!
    by lonelyhearted at 05/08/08 8:21PM
  • just2seeusmile
    hehe.. yeah! Life has been just as crazy for me!
    by just2seeusmile at 05/08/08 8:21PM
  • lonelyhearted
    Really! what do you mean?
    by lonelyhearted at 05/08/08 8:22PM
  • just2seeusmile
    trust me, if I told you you wouldn't believe me ;P
    by just2seeusmile at 05/08/08 8:22PM
  • lonelyhearted
    would too!
    by lonelyhearted at 05/08/08 8:22PM
  • just2seeusmile
    Well I'm going through stuff.. its just amazing when you posted I thought I clicked on the wrong blog or something and was like :O
    by just2seeusmile at 05/08/08 8:23PM
  • lonelyhearted
    Remember wee always said we were triplets! ;)
    by lonelyhearted at 05/08/08 8:24PM
  • just2seeusmile
    LOL yeah we did! And you should see my niece she's gonna be just like us ;)
    by just2seeusmile at 05/08/08 8:24PM
  • lonelyhearted
    posted to your blog!
    by lonelyhearted at 05/08/08 8:25PM
  • just2seeusmile
    okay let me go see.. *going*
    by just2seeusmile at 05/08/08 8:25PM
  • just2seeusmile
    ...going to wash dishes, love you!
    by just2seeusmile at 05/08/08 8:28PM
  • sarah_seaton
    Good, I'm glad. *wipes brow* :-D
    by sarah_seaton at 05/08/08 10:15PM
  • justjen
    Thank you :)
    by justjen at 05/09/08 3:16PM
  • heroforthenight
    i hope everything gets worked out. sounds pretty rough
    by heroforthenight at 11/15/08 2:00PM

06/04/07 10:27AM

life sucks
  • just2seeusmile
    ...hey ive not seen you own for a long time
    what's up ?
    by just2seeusmile at 06/04/07 10:40AM
  • justjen
    Hi! I am a big fan of swimming to keep cool in the summer. Popsicles are also good!
    by justjen at 07/06/07 4:38AM
  • soul_stealer
    whats up new person
    by soul_stealer at 08/16/07 10:05PM
  • sniperwolf176
    I'm backkkkkkkkk!
    by sniperwolf176 at 02/23/08 12:43AM
  • ferret_lovers
    by ferret_lovers at 02/23/08 11:25PM
  • sniperwolf176
    If God is for us, who can be against us?
    by sniperwolf176 at 03/01/08 5:54PM

05/29/07 7:45AM

When the summer is deathly hot, what is one thing you like--that keeps you cool?

03/12/07 6:32PM

Sorry I've not posted. I've been down with the weather.
I can't wait to go traveling this summer out east.
My brother is very sick :( I think he caught it from me.

I love cake with butter cream icing and tater-tots. Just not together of course ;)

Whats new in your life?
  • the_bandersnatch
    Sorry to hear you were sick. Where out east are you planning on going?
    by the_bandersnatch at 03/12/07 7:16PM
  • heroforthenight
    You are beautiful.
    by heroforthenight at 03/19/07 4:15PM
  • justjen
    Butter cream icing mmmmmm!
    by justjen at 03/31/07 9:08PM

07/19/06 3:24PM

the world has been so crazy lately
i've not had time to talk to any of my cool friends
who posted to me below
I really think I should make more time to get on here
but it seems life is just flying by
there is hardly any time to do anything!
Maybe its just me?

But life has been fun... :)
  • palindrome90
    aw, I hate losing touch with people. I apologize!
    by palindrome90 at 07/19/06 3:42PM
  • just2seeusmile
    WOW... someone has changed.
    by just2seeusmile at 07/22/06 1:52PM
  • lonelyhearted
    Dont ask Brandy :\
    by lonelyhearted at 07/22/06 1:53PM
  • andiquote
    I think he owes you a BIG appology that was NOT Christlike!
    by andiquote at 07/22/06 1:54PM
  • super_belch
    who are you?
    by super_belch at 07/24/06 12:03AM
  • justjen
    Life is fast, but enjoyable
    by justjen at 07/24/06 5:03PM
  • mr_gates
    congtatulations! ur a finalist in my contest!!!
    by mr_gates at 07/26/06 12:56AM
  • andiquote
    just delete the comments.... they shalnt be back lol
    by andiquote at 07/28/06 8:46AM
  • capt_crunch
    apology accepted, and Sarah asked me to tell you that she too apologizes. We hope that this is the end of it, and that no more trouble arises. She also said she'll keep rude comments to herself, as long as you do the same. Peace, women!
    by capt_crunch at 07/31/06 4:24PM
  • heroforthenight
    wouldn't it be cool if grass was red? since the sky is blue, and the sky and grass are most of what we see, the two colors would compliment each other nicely
    by heroforthenight at 08/04/06 3:25PM
  • lonelyhearted
    haha! :)
    by lonelyhearted at 09/18/06 3:08PM
  • justjen
    Life is flying by, but I'm glad it's fun!
    by justjen at 10/31/06 2:57AM
  • andiquote
    hey linz -- brandy got gold! member her tellin us about her bro sometime last year? she has like this really cool picture of him up -- ya gotta go see it!
    by andiquote at 01/25/07 11:37AM
  • the_bandersnatch
    It's not that cool of a picture :p More like me pretending to be cool.

    So tell me a bit about yourself. :)

    by the_bandersnatch at 01/25/07 1:07PM
  • the_bandersnatch
    Also, I know what you mean about expecting to be single forever. Definitely feel like that myself sometimes. ;)
    by the_bandersnatch at 01/25/07 2:58PM
  • sniperwolf176
    Hi are you ever going ot post? call her at lunchtime..
    by sniperwolf176 at 03/01/07 10:13AM