I keep getting on here with the purpose of writing a new post, only to realize I either 1) don't have the words, or 2) don't have the time to fully talk about what all has happened in the last several weeks.
So I decided to create a third option and just pop on to let everyone know we are alive.:)
My heart is full. My God is a rock.
Can I just say that dealing with airlines and changing tickets to an earlier date is a NIGHTMARE?
Going on hour 3 on the phone....
Ready to see family. Ready for huge hugs. Thankful for God's joy.:)
Leaving in the morning for a two day (early) anniversary trip to New Hampshire with my beloved. Just a tad excited. Especially because we are starting the trip off with a bang by going straight to a mountain to go skiing in the morning.
Almost five years of marriage. I just can't seem to wrap my head around it. If I had more time (which, sadly, I do not as my last minute packing and then bed call to me) I would expound on the many ways being a wife and subsequent mother have transformed my view of our Lord and my relationship to Him.
But that must wait for another day.:)
For now, we ski!
My son has gotten in the habit of including in his prayers "...and dear God, please bless me with a wife. Maybe (insert name of a little girl) and maybe Linden. In Jesus' name we pray, amen."
We even had a conversation with him at dinner a while ago when he got a little sullen and, when asked what was wrong, said "Dad, I want to marry mom, but you married her first".
I keep thinking about the parents of some pre-teen girls who asked me as an older teen/twenty year old not to speak to their daughters about emotional purity in a bible class several of us girls were hosting as "They were too young to think about things like that". A three year old little boy is already thinking about marriage to a little girl. Wow. My mommy radar is buzzing as I seek to train his heart to trust in God in such a hugely important arena, filled with mine fields and snipers. No wonder I remember my mom and dad on their knees so much with five warriors and one maiden to train. Whew. So interesting to seek to give more answers and explain on an appropriate level as they grow.
He also keeps asking "Mommy, how do I give my heart to God?".:) So thankful for my sweet little man, and praying for him to guard his amazing heart, keeping it safe in the Lord, and maybe someday sharing it with a godly young woman.
I learn a lot from my kids as I seek to answer their questions.:)
I chose to delete my last entry as it contained some harsh complaining on my part, and for that I apologize. Things are not any better on the extended family front, but as our family Christmas gatherings will not contain any people causing the drama (their absence being initiated themself) I anticipate having a less stressful holiday, and will do better about any online emotional spit-ups. I do not post here to air any grievances or seek sympathy; I would rather any posts I write to be a source of encouragement and joy, even though the subject matter will not always be What is Going Right in My Life. Please forgive me, friends. God is always in control, and any sorrow is overwhelmed by His comfort.
On that note, I am quietly excited about the upcoming next couple of weeks.:) We are flying into Nashville tomorrow and will spend 2-3 days with Justin's mom and her husband. We always face the question: what do you get the people who have no need for ANYTHING? We came up with some fun things that I am excited to share, as money is not the point but emotional value.:) They will then head home (or maybe stick around a little while? Not clear about that) while my huge family slowly trickle into town. Even my grandmother from Oregon is flying out! The Dehut's will stick around and party for a whole week, punctuated by many close friends/practically family popping in. No matter how hard we try to NOT plan too many things we inevitably tell so many people that we are free to go see them or them see us that we find ourselves with a full schedule every. Single. Time. Wonderful, but wonderfully exhausting, and leaving us with such a warm and gorging heart that we can happily get on a plane after a week to return home, thankful to go back to our life in Boston with our simple and little family while feeling so well fed to survive until the next familial feast. Aaaah. Nothing like being with god-fearing family to renew your soul to keep fighting until we all go Home.
Now on to the task of figuring out the inevitable jigsaw puzzle of Christmas presents in suitcases.... let the fun begin.
May God be with all of you during these family filled days!