I had to write a poem not sure if it's good or not but here's what i wrote
Dreams Noone Knows
You often have your nose in a book
To read about someone else's problems someone else's happy endings
Because at least they have happy endings to thier problems
You learned a long time ago to feel, to love only ends in hurt when all is said and done
But you dream of a day were to feel, to love doesn't have to equal hurt
You dream of a day were your problems have happy endings
A day were you a book doesn't have to be an excape from your life
But noone knows
They never see the dream the wistful look in your eyes
All they see is a girl with her nose in a book
I don't know about it but I turn it in tomorrow
P.s. It's hilarious when guys freak about a toad that's in your hand
I'm finally 16 today has been awsome so that's really all i have to say
ok i would love to see some new student at russellville to be given a schedule and no direction honestly someone sould video tape that are campus is to big and random not to be giveb direction lol
i'd also like to see a phycology major observe band nerds and then try to write a thesis on it that would be hilarious
ok so this is what i can't wiat for first school to be out then 1st camp then 2nd camp then gems and then marching band season(i can wiat for school to start just not marching band season)
he're a quote i love "nothings like searching for a place to belong and finding out you were there already"
am i allowed to vent? if not oh well hear it goes.
Ever have those days when you're feeling down about yourself. when nothing seems to be coming natural and everybody is overlooking you. I don't know what brings these feelings out maybe because I'm as for from a prep as can be and the preps seem to be having all the fun. Ever see somebody who's just naturally good at everything and then look at yourself who is barely staying a float in one area of talent. Sometimes these days and people will catch you by surprise maybe you've been fighting these days for years. For me they catch me by surprise. I happened to have one today. When all you really want to do is criticize yourself. You can deny having these feeling maybe you've already gotten over them. But for me I'm fighting them all the time. Maybe I've yet to figure out who I am. But today I did figure out one thing that no matter how alone you feel and how close to crying you are there is always somone looking at you wishing you wouldn't be so hard on yourself no matter if it's the friend who tries thier best to make you feel better but isn't really saying anything encouraging, or the friend that only knows to hug you when you look down, or maybe it's that friend that can get you to smile when all you want to do is cry but thier is someone who will always have your back. I will probably fight these filling everyday but now I know I may not be good at many things but someone will always have my back. (Great i just made myself cry)
That's all i have it's a lot deeper than i usually like to go
wow i haven't been on here in forever. So I went to my first winter camp and had a blast. And today was the first day of the semester and i'm pretty sure the work load is going to kill me this semester. That's about all that's happening right now. Oh yeah i'm also in three bands:concert. pep. and jazz.