I watched you walk away
Hopeless, with nothing to say
I screen my eyes
Hoping to see you again

This is my curse (the longing)
This is my curse (to)
This is my curse (the yearning)
This is my curse

There is love burning to find you
Will you wait for me?
Will you be here?

Your silence haunts me
But I still hunger for you

This is my curse (the wanting)
This is my curse (to)
This is my curse (the needing)

There is love burning to find you
Will you wait for me?

Still I want
And I still I ache
But still I wait
To see you again

Dying, inside, these walls (2x)

Can I see your face in these tears? In these tears
And I see your face...

There is love [8x]

Fixation on the darkness that engulfs this world
Drain the life force of our people, change
Return to the womb, new life
Lay your head to rest, mercy
To give you a peace of mind, lay your head to rest
Come together inside, this body is only a shell
Change, the only way we will survive
Light transfiguration of the soul, of the soul, of the mind
Tell them they will not hold us down, it's time for a change

Seek me, call me
I'll be waiting

This distance, this dissolution
I cling to memories while falling
Sleep brings release, and the hope of a new day
Waking the misery of being without you

Surrender, I give in
Another moment is another eternity

(Seek me) For comfort, (Call me) For solace
(I'll be waiting) For the end of my broken heart
(Seek me) Completion, (Call me) I'll be waiting
(I'll be waiting) For the end of my broken heart

You know me, you know me all too well
My only desire - to bridge our division

In sorrow I speak your name
And my voice mirrors my torment

(Seek me) For comfort, (Call me) For solace
(I'll be waiting) For the end of my broken heart
(Seek me) Completion, (Call me) I'll be waiting
(I'll be waiting) For the end of my broken heart

Am I breathing?
My strength fails me
Your picture, a bitter memory

For comfort, for solace
(Seek me) For comfort, (Call me) For solace
(I'll be waiting) For the end of my broken heart
(Seek me) Completion, (Call me) I'll be waiting
(I'll be waiting) For the end of my broken heart

I've never been so happy to see my house in my life. When you think that you are going to die, but then you don't, you really appreciate life. And when you're in the hospital for days and the doctors don't really know why you're having the problems that you're having, you start to wonder if you're going to ever see your home again. But when you do, no matter how crappy your home looked or felt before, suddenly it looks like a palace and feels glorious.

I was very thankful to have visitors while I was in the hospital. Lesley, Emily, James, Terra, Phil, Richie, Katelyn, Aaron, and Julie all stopped by while I was there. Nick and Jordan came to my house just a little while ago and hung out for a while. Thank all of you for taking time to come see me. It really made the stay more bearable.

If you want the whole scoop on what happened to me, I'll tell you when I come to church on Sunday (Lord willing). The doctor told me that I wasnt allowed to go anywhere until at least Thursday, so that rules out church on Wednesday night. If you guys want, you could probably get a group together and come over to my house after church if you wanted. It's ok with me, but let me know so I can ask my parents. Well, I need to go to bed now. Later.

-Jonny

Yes, as you are all probably well aware, I've been at Baptist Hospital East since yesterday. Well, two days ago. It's after midnight now. I don't feel like typing the whole thing up on here, but basically, I have an infection that spread to my heart and caused inflammation of the sac around my heart. The doctors say that I should be completely fine once this clears up. No long term damage. Pray that they're right.