12/04/05 4:27PM

i'm over that stupid boy. i was right. i was tired of being that stupid girl. but. where i was wrong was that he wasn't so great. he was a stupid boy too. and now i'm realizing that i don't have to be that stupid girl. i can be that smart girl who knows what she wants and goes after it. and that's who i intend to be. i intend to be ME with all my heart. and to follow my heart and wishes. i told that stupid boy that i didn't want anything to do with him. now he will be the one hurting. so fellas, i'm single. ;) i won't chase after stupid boys anymore. if you want me... try and catch me.

tomorrow's my birthday! ...i'm not excited this year. usually i'm counting down with three months to go and jumping for joy. this year i walk with a frown on my face and no spring in my step. this year has been the best. 18 has been so invigorating. so fresh and new. i'm afraid of what's ahead for a change. scary thoughts. but whatever comes i will face it with full throttle. no turning back.

oh! and... i forgot to ask off at Ruby Tuesday's for tomorrow, so I'm working on my birthday. No big deal. Besides, if I was angry, the only person I could blame would be....me. haha. Not too mention I'm only working 11:30 to probably 4ish, if not earlier than that. But! The exciting part? I'm out of training over there and will be on my own. Yikes! It's both scary and exhilirating at the same time. Wish me luck. I only had three days of training and I'm being tossed out there. I don't know the menu as well as I feel I should. Pray for me. :)

Oh yeah! Aaaannndddd...I have to go to court tomorrow night. What a great birthday present, huh? Yeah, it sucks. Remember that speeding ticket I got way back in Aprilish? Yeah, my lawyer has got it continued ever since then. I was originally told that I wouldn't have to appear in court that he would take of everything for me. Liar. Sooo...

At the end of the day my mom is going to take me to a movie. Just her and I. I don't want a big shindig this year, no presents, no yipees, just a simple happy birthday. Okay, screw that. It's me we're talking about!! ....I left out the hugegiganticorific cake that I will eat all by myself.