Most of you know the devestating tragedy that hit on last Friday night to Robbie Marshall. I'm not going to say much because everyone else has already touched on that and I don't wanna sound like a broken record. But, what I want to say is that he is an awesome person. He has his negatives, but who doesn't. But in the end he's all that and a poptart with sprinkles. You don't realize that bad things really do happen to good people and they can hit close to home, sometimes too close. But keeping praying. He's a fighter and he will make it through this. But he needs our help and God's help. God has gotten him this far and we need to continue to have faith in the Lord. I love all of you and I have the best friends in the world!


I've been tagged. Yay! :)
Five quirks that make me a weirdo! :)

*1. I like the smell of stinky feet. ...I know, I know. Ew, gross, you are a freak. Yup, told ya.

**2. At night I can't look at a mirror and then close my eyes and go to sleep, If I look at a mirror I have to look at something else before I can close my eyes and go to sleep because it makes me think of the candyman and all other creepy things.

***3. I didn't stop playing with barbies until I was 15, and I still like to set up the homes, dress them, and do their hair.

****4. It makes me gag when I see or hear people blowing their nose. Eck.

*****5. I can't sleep without my stuffed elephant, Mr.Perrywinkle.


....i have the poops today. :(

School is going great. I can't believe how much I've learned just going on the fourth week. It's crazy, but I'm loving every minute of it. I've been thinking about what to do after I graduate. I will get a job of course, but I want to further my education. I think I will go and get my nursing degree this fall that way I have better credentials. I've also been doing some thinking.... I've wanted to be a dermatologist for so long and the 13 years of schooling has always scared me off, not too mention the fear of not succeeding. There's a lot to know and you can't slack your way through it. But! I've been doing really well in school so far. We've had three tests and I've passed those with great grades. That's reassured me that if I have the mindset and the will to pass and I do what it takes then I will succeed. That's a great feeling to have. We'll see where I'm at after I graduate. But now I know that it's not the fear of failing that'll hold me back.

I start working on clients tomorrow at school. I'm way excited!

I put my two weeks in over there at Captain D's. :( It was hard. I will only have to work 3 days a week at Ruby's in order to make enough to pay my bills. It's whats best for me, not them. So, I did it. But, I might work once a month or so over there, just because it's hard detaching myself. My manager is the one who approached me about that, and it sounds like a plan. Then I don't feel as bad.

I got in touch with an old friend. She used to be my best friend, but after I moved we lost touch. Which is sad. How can two people who are so close grow so far apart? Odd. But we've been talking again, which is great. I miss her a bunch. I'm leaving Feb. 10th to go see her.

I start school tomorrow! I'm way excited!! I haven't been to a public school in 5 years. Ahh! I haven't been able to contain my excitement all day today! I'm tickled pink. I can't wait to start learning all of the great things about skin. Hmm, doesn't that sound weird. Anyways, life is grreeat. Hmm. Ahhh. Happiness.

eh. i hate the winter. i hate being sick. i hate the cold. i hate not being able to wear sandals. i hate coats. i'm sick. it stinks. it's a chest cold which makes it hard to breathe. i'm losing my voice. i am officially signed up to start school jan. 2. excited about that! but then the stress comes of choosing which job i want to keep. rubys or captain d's. its stressful.

pro and con list:

captain d's pros:
1.management position
2.knowing what i'm doing
3.darn good at my job
4.it's super easy
5.get out at a decent time
6.they'll work around my shedule
7.they love me a lot
8.i don't have to deal with the stress of learning something new and being the best at it, because i already am (hahaha...it's the truth darn it.)

captain d's cons:
1.i'm bored with working there
2.i get tired of craby customers
3.i'm tired of waiting for the management position
4.need more money

ruby's pros:
1.make a lot of money
2.hot, single, person who i think might be interested in me works there
3.easy

ruby's cons:
1.there's stress of doing the job right and making no mistakes and still learning how to do my job and be comfortable with it
2.if i were to put my two weeks in i would be scared of what people would think because i just started there
3.i wouldn't get those big tips anymore if i quit
4.i wouldn't get out at a decent hour
5.i'm still new so im not close with people there
6.i would upset them more if something came up with school whereas captain ds knows me and would understand


i think my big thing is that if i quit rubys i would miss the chance of making more money, because i make good money there and i would have to struggle at captain d's. but i know that deep down captain d's would be better for me while i'm going to school because i can study while on the clock, i won't have to close, blah blah blah. but i'm scared of telling ruby tuesdays that i am putting my two weeks in. that scares me. they hired me and i've only worked there a month. i don't want to upset anyone. what should i do? what would you do?

i'm over that stupid boy. i was right. i was tired of being that stupid girl. but. where i was wrong was that he wasn't so great. he was a stupid boy too. and now i'm realizing that i don't have to be that stupid girl. i can be that smart girl who knows what she wants and goes after it. and that's who i intend to be. i intend to be ME with all my heart. and to follow my heart and wishes. i told that stupid boy that i didn't want anything to do with him. now he will be the one hurting. so fellas, i'm single. ;) i won't chase after stupid boys anymore. if you want me... try and catch me.

tomorrow's my birthday! ...i'm not excited this year. usually i'm counting down with three months to go and jumping for joy. this year i walk with a frown on my face and no spring in my step. this year has been the best. 18 has been so invigorating. so fresh and new. i'm afraid of what's ahead for a change. scary thoughts. but whatever comes i will face it with full throttle. no turning back.

oh! and... i forgot to ask off at Ruby Tuesday's for tomorrow, so I'm working on my birthday. No big deal. Besides, if I was angry, the only person I could blame would be....me. haha. Not too mention I'm only working 11:30 to probably 4ish, if not earlier than that. But! The exciting part? I'm out of training over there and will be on my own. Yikes! It's both scary and exhilirating at the same time. Wish me luck. I only had three days of training and I'm being tossed out there. I don't know the menu as well as I feel I should. Pray for me. :)

Oh yeah! Aaaannndddd...I have to go to court tomorrow night. What a great birthday present, huh? Yeah, it sucks. Remember that speeding ticket I got way back in Aprilish? Yeah, my lawyer has got it continued ever since then. I was originally told that I wouldn't have to appear in court that he would take of everything for me. Liar. Sooo...

At the end of the day my mom is going to take me to a movie. Just her and I. I don't want a big shindig this year, no presents, no yipees, just a simple happy birthday. Okay, screw that. It's me we're talking about!! ....I left out the hugegiganticorific cake that I will eat all by myself.