Hello everyone. I hope yall are all doing good it has been a long time since I have talked to most of you.
I am just working and working right now. Seems to be most of my life. But life is great.
In the past 3 years I have gotten married moved far away from my family after 8 months of trying got pregnant and lost the baby. Then after a year and a half of trying again my doctors told me I was infertile and they aren't sure why. So i decide to go the foster care route and get the two most perfect boys I love them they love us they are my little boys and I couldn't have loved any two kids more and they got taken away from us. If I could imagine how it feels for your kids to die I think it would feel that way. Then I got 2 girls that even though I learned alot it was a very long and stressful 3 months. Then there is stuff in my marriage that happened that means I wont be married anymore and who knows what people have heard because I have heard different stories from different friends but just don't believe everything and maybe one day I will feel like talking about it and some may hear the story.
I am not doing this to get pity or anything I am putting this up here to tell yall to just be understanding for me right now. I love all my friends and family who have tried to help me throguh these things so please don't feel hurt when I say this but I just have felt so alone through these past 3 years. I know I am not the only one who goes through these things and I know I will always have some of you but you have to understand my heart hurts and sometimes it is just not that easy. I feel alone and empty inside right now and I am just trying to get through it.
I really do love everyone and I am trying and I want to thank everyone that is trying to help me.
I am just trying to wrap my little mind around all these things that have happened. Why my life dream has just gone down the drain. And please please don't say everything happens for a reason or there is a plan for everything cause honestly that doesn't help and I am not trying to be rude but after 3 long long long years of hearing this I think I am starting to resent those 2 phrases the most.
I really do love everyone please believe that!