things have been a lil going down hill my sis might have to have a majer surjery that we dont want her to have its scary and then my mom has a mass on her that isnt supposed to be there and were scared to find out what it really is were just hoping its not cancer so things just arnt going well right now but we are looking forward to going to disney in december and being with our MPS friends and having a blast every one gets it there and understands its just a wonderful place to be with them but it always falls on spencer's birthday and last time spencer was there with us so it will be alot harder not having him with us but its alot harder not having him with us not matter where we are

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I dedicate this song to me one not living soul and hero my big brother stephen spencer holland 1989-jan26th08 my hero


When you're down and troubled
And you need some loving care
And nothing, nothing is going right
Close your eyes and think of me
And soon I will be there
To brighten up even your darkest night

You just call out my name
And you know wherever I am
I'll come running to see you again
Winter, spring, summer or fall
All you have to do is call
And I'll be there
You've got a friend

If the sky above you
Grows dark and full of clouds
And that old north wind begins to blow
Keep your head together
And call my name out loud
Soon you'll hear me knocking at your door

You just call out my name
And you know wherever I am
I'll come running to see you
Winter, spring, summer or fall
All you have to do is call
And I'll be there

Ain't it good to know that you've got a friend
When people can be so cold
They'll hurt you, and desert you
And take your soul if you let them
Oh, but don't you let them

You just call out my name
And you know wherever I am
I'll come running to see you again
Winter, spring, summer or fall
All you have to do is call
And I'll be there
You've got a friend

a song i kinda wrote but i changed it up alot
take me away 7-8-2008 by maddie holland


BY:MADDIE.HOLLANDwhen i look at you the happyness that comes to my heart shines and the world is perfect when i play with your hair the softness it is your eyes are so buetiful they r my favorite color the smile you have just fulfils my soul and the hand i hold when im scared or just lovingly the kiss i give you on the cheek means nothing more i wanna be with u and when dance that way is like art on the paper the most beutiful colors of the painting BY MADDIE HOLLAND
What do you think about this? thats after i am married the dancing part









take me away, take me away, to a winters day a winters day a sweet escape a sweet escape, just take me away .iv got things that changed me. iv got some things still the same. their still the same their. still the same .about the death of somone and that someone being my brother being my brother so take me away, take me away to wintersday a winters day, take me away iv got a pocket a pocket full of sunshine i got his looks and i know their like me mine. i love so much we share them o0o0o, oh do what ya but you’re never gonna break me.

Sticks and stones are never gonna shake me.

No.

take me away take me away to a winters day a winters day . i hated that day i hated that day it was the worst day of my life .and still is up to that day it changed me in little ways. and it also changed me in alot of days i hate it for even happing. i hate it cuz now nothing will be the same.
i hate him not being here i hate not being able to hug him i hate not ever saying his name i love looking at his pictur i love evey thing about him i just hate that day and i will never be the same

ever since we got outa school i have been wanting to get outa da house and doing somthing although its been hard when your mom and sis are sick the 1st 2 weeks of summer so i havnt been having fun but i take care of them and i love doing the cradle roll class at church i had this baby emma atached to my hip the entire class time shes a sweety and cute we leave for cannada next week and while we r there it will be my b-day june 26th im excited about turning 17 cept i loved being thirteen and i loved being 16 my two faveoret years lol but we will have loads of fun while were there i cant wait and we wont have to do treatment for about almost 2 weeks lucky us not being tyed down to a IV for 3 and a half hours its no fun but atleast we miss one day a week well i cant thing of anything else to talk about i might go to camp but idn yet i guesse i will just wait and make my chouse the day camp starts thats when i really do my ifs i wanna goes and dont wanna goes cya yall later good bye

ps i put pink in my hair today and my dad will probly freak lol my mom took me

when i think of Jesus i think of a super hero he comes and saves the day when your ar feeling tempted and gray he saves us from the evil one and takes all our burdons away and if we make a mistake if we ask for forgivness he takes it all away Jesus loves us and he is our personal savior so the next time you are feeling tempted and make a mistake just ask God to forgive you and he will take all the pain away
my brothers pleonast is NmemoreyofspencerH@pleonast.com go comment it thanks love ya by the way i write poetry alot now so if ya waanna c more i might show ya love ya bye ps i am in school right now lol

ps um i dont understand about the colors could some one please help me my b-day is june 26th


WHAT I WANT FOR MY B-DAY ITS COMMING UP

*ANYTHING PINK
*GIFT CARDS TO LIFE WAY CHRISTIAN STORE OR ANY CHRISTIAN STORE
*MAKE UP
* SCRAP BOOK STUFF
*GEL PINS
* BOOKS
*MAGIZENS
MAC AND CHEESE LOL
*MUSIC
ANYTHING ELSE U CAN GET YOUR HANDS ON LOVE YA MEAN IT