I'd been on a mission to find someone worthy of my love, someone who would love me equally, someone who could prove to me that they could be trusted with my heart.
I'd been looking, searching, wanting yet not finding. It always seemed to me that I'd never find everything I was looking for. After searching all the wrong places it occured to me that the one I was looking for has been here all along, he was just waiting for me to realize it.
When I saw all the supporting evidence I knew he was the one.
He loves me SO much and continues too, even though sometimes I reject his love and treat him as though I could somehow do better.
He gave me the most wonderful gift. He wrote me the most wonderful love letter. And he just keeps on being wonderful to me even when I don't deserve it.
He's so wonderful, so loving, so compassionate, so beautiful. I can't imagine my life without him, I know I coulld live without him for even one second.
He EVERYTHING I could ever want in a someone to love and He promised that he won't ever leave me.
He's my first love. He loves me even when I don't deserve it. He sent his only begotten son to die a HORRIBLE death in my place, for my sins so that I could have the chance to be with him forever. He wrote me a 66 book love letter.
How can I not fall in love with someone so wonderful? he's everything I want and so much much more.
I love being able to spend time with him he's SO amazing. I tresure the love letter that he's written to me, I like to read my favorite parts till the words are imprinted in my mind.
Everyday I fall more and more in love with him. He's my Everything, He is my ALL. I can't wait to be able to spend eternity with him.
Standing here on the edge of this cliff, the cliff of childhood. Looking down I see what lies ahead, and I'm frightend, it all looks so different to me.
I'm beginning to make choices that will effect me for the rest of my life, that too frightens me. What if I don't make the right choices?
what I don't learn everything I'm supposed too?. Although what is to come in life is unknown I'm comforted because I know who holds the future, and I will put my trust in him.
The choices I make now could effect how my life will turn out, so I've got to make the best of every decision I am faced with throughout my life. I must put God first in every decision.
Even things like were I attend college or who my friends are may alter my future.
Right now is so hard for me to trust God with my whole life. I feel like I should have a opinion about what he's going to do with my life, the people whose lives are going to be touched by him through me, the ways he's going to make me stronger. I'm starting to realize that the only choce I get is to obey him or disobey. Obedence is my choice and that requires submission, dedication and trust. I know that if I submit to him satan will flee(Jm.4:7) If I am wholly commited to him he will be my strength, my trust, my shield, my stronghold (Psalms 18:2) if I trust in him with my whole heart he will be my Hope and salvation(Psalms 39:7; Psalms 62:1,6).
Lately in my life I've learned were my trust is and where it should be. I'm learning to trust God with my all, always.
To you O Lord, I lift up my my soul. O my God I trust in You: Let me not be ashamed.........(Psalms 25:1-2)
Trust in the Lord with all you heart lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowlegde him and he shall direct your paths. (Proverbs 3:6-7).
Here I am in this moment, day before my seventeenth birthday, I'll admit I've been so consentrated on the future that I haven't stop to take it all in.
Right now I'm on the edge of childhood, I feel so much older I feel like I've exprienced so much, yet I know there is SO much more I'm so young, Lord's willing I have years and years more of life to exprience, everyday will be a new challenge.
In our lives we are taught to be independent, that if things are going to workout for us we have to be tough and do it all on our own. I am such a self-reliant person I like to do everything all by myself, when it life gets hard I just keep on trying because I know I can do it! and when I fall down I pull myself up by the boot straps and keep on going.
society teaches me that if I work hard enough and refuse to give up I can have whatever I want.
I'm finding that the problem with all those things is that on my own I can't do anything! I am nothing, on my own I couldn't survive a single second!.
Altho I like to think that I can do it all on my own I simply Can't! even though I like to be Independent and self-reliant I can't be.
Everyday I'm learning that I am So dependant on God He is my Life, my breath, my joy, my comfort, my All in All!.
So many times I fail miserably at giving him the glory for all he does for me, he has Lent me all I have Including my body, therefore I'm not Independent as I would like to think actually I am helpless and needy without him, I am at his mercy.
I am learning to become Dependent on God and he will be My help and guide through life.
I am learning to let Andrea decrease and let Christ Increase (John 3:30), because it is no longer I who lives, but christ living In Me! (Gal.2:20).
I am learning not to conform to the this world, but be transformed by the renew of my mind that I may prove that which is the Good, acceptable and perfect will of God (Rom. 12:2)
I can do ALL things through christ which strenghtens me!! Phil.4:13.
God is my light and my salvation! whom shall I fear?
satan is ever so persistant, He NEVER gives up.
lately I've been thinking what if we saw ourselves as God does all the beauty, all the flaws, all the potential?
what if we used every bit of our talent?
those questions have been very thought provoking and needful for me.
Its so hard for me to see all the beauty God sees in me but so easy for me too see the flaws and assume that flaws is all he sees too, its so easy too become complacent because my human eyes cant see the potential as God does, its so hard for me to
comprehend that God made me beautiful just like him ,but he also made me different than anyone else.
I easily become discouraged because I see my own flaws and failures and forget that that everything God has made is beautiful including me.
so what if God saw things the way we do?
what would he see?
my question to you is:
how do you see your self through your eyes? or through your creators eyes?
"I am fearfully and wonderfully made and my soul knoweth right well"....Psalm 139:14
here's the thoughts of the day
Beauty is not in the face; beauty is a light in the heart. ~Kahlil Gibran
It matters more what's in a woman's face than what's on it.
"It is one of the beautiful compensations of life that no man can sincerely try to help another without helping himself."
Ralph Waldo Emerson
hey! its been while since I updated our only computer with the internet is broken.
Wow life is crazy amazingness I love it!
time is flying by so quickly my most adorable baby brother in the whole wide world is growing up so quickly he's twenty months
walking,talking,and learning so much so fast I just want to be able to hold time in my hand a cherish these moments a little while longer.
I LOVE my friends and I enjoy every moment that I am given to spend with them.
2009 is here I cant believe it!! I dont want to believe it
but I have no choice it got here so fast! it feels like 2008
just got here but now its gone.
2009 a new year new beginnings a new outlook.
in this new year my goals are:
to learn something new,to be a friend to all who need one,
to face my fears,to make my best better,to encourage others,
to not worry about anything (phil.4:6) but to change the things I can and to leave the rest in Gods hands,to use the time I am given wisely(eph.5:16)
To see my life the way God sees it and make the neccesary adjustments.
I want to be able to say that I have bettered myself and have become less of me and more of christ(john 3:30)
heres the thought of the day
friendship is a garden whose growing season never ends.
with my whole heart I have sought the: O let me not wander from your commandments.
thy word have i hid in my heart, that i might not sin against you.
blessed are you O Lord teach me your statues
catch ya later