yay for camp!!!!!
Everyone have fun!~~?
So, I'm sitting with my great grandpa and listening to him ask me over and over again for my gma and gpa to come down and speak with him because he's afraid he won't be able to talk to them before he "gets on the road."
It hurts knowing that he's passing and I really wish I knew him back in his younger days when he could jump around and keep up with the boys. He's an awesome guy and I really wish that I turn out to be half the man he is.
I was sitting there talking with him and, before I left, he wrestled his hand from the blaket and shook my hand thanking me for being such a nice boy.
I am not sure if he knows who I am and is complimenting me on not being my 8 yr old self...
...or I don't know if he doesnt remember me at all.
It hurts him to speak. His lungs are filling with fluids and he's growing weaker as the days go on.
He sat and talked to me about how he doesn't know a lot of the people that are coming to speak with him and how he really wished there were more people that he knew.
I feel so helpless...
I know death is part of life.
I know death brings life as surely as life brings death.
Just the same, it hurts.
My gma is going through the same thing I'm feeling right now every day. Even worse, it is her daddy. So, I know she is feeling it worse than I am.
He thinks day is night and night is day. gma seems to think that occasionally he's lost his mind and then sometimes he finds it again...
I just think that from his perspective it all makes since. He is in one room and there isn't much difference between night and day... People look different after a few years, especially if they are kids... And he's bound to have his body expending all its energy into breathing and other basic needs. It's understandable how his brain is more focused on that than trying to remember someone's name.
It seems the topic of conversation tends to shift toward, "How's he really gonna die?"
And then it goes on from there:
-will it hurt?
-will it be a heart attaack?
-will it be failure of the lungs or heart?
-should we keep trying to feed him? Or just get him water?
Anyway... i should go.
It's almost 7 am now and I need to get to sleep. I have to wake up early tomorrow... I need to be up by 8 to get to the reunion and 4th of july lunch.
yeah... I'll be with the rest of the family celebrating our country's independence as my great grandpa searches himself to find his independence apart from this world.
Yay for the spiritual plane.
I hope that angel after angel comes down from heaven to lift him up, burden by burden, pain by pain, until all his cares and worries are gone.
When I think of him, I think:
-integrity - His yes was yes and his no was no
-kindness - He was always willing to help someone in need
-thrifty - He'd pick up every penny he saw on the ground
-survivor - He survived 2 seperate shipwrecks durring the war
I hope that when I'm in his position, if God blesses me with such a thing, that someone will be able to say the same about me.
Life and Death are curious things.
Birth and Death, Life in between...
Blessed be to God.
Yeah... So, I'm excited about tomorrow... So, thought I'd share with the world...lol
I'm waking up at 10 and mowing the lawn... Showering and getting ready by 1130 and then off to a friend's play by 100. Then I get to enjoy that long enough to let another friend get done baby sitting for the day...
And then yeah... the best part...
I got a date!
But yeah... Gonna go out with an amazing girl. The only thing is that she's supper witty...So, I gotta stay on my toes...lol
But yah... should be fun.
So, wish me luck!
But yeah... that is tomorrow's amazing sched....lol, then i can sleep in all day sat... So, that's cool too.
I know... Exciting huh?
Aren't you just glad you read this/? lol
So, I'm out of town until Friday...
So, leave some love...
I just finished writing the first draft of the new training manual for Balloon Distractions...
I need someone to read over it and make sure it makes sense. In fact, I'd perfer someone that wasn't with the company to read it. I want to know if someone new to the business understands everything I'm talking about.
So, anyone want to read 25 pages of balloon twisting info? lol...
Yeah... I'l be waiting around for someone crazy enough to say yes ;-)
lol, and until then...