Scene: Middle of the night. No real conversation going on.
Pop: These young men and women having sex before they are married.... its just wrong.
Me: Where did that come from?
Pop: The Bible!
Scene: Neurologist's office, Dr. has just finished asking who the president is.
Dr: Where is the president from?
Pop: ..... ...... ... Kenya!
Scene: Home, young lady from church has brought dinner as I'm getting home.
Pop: Hey there he is!(he being me). Come meet the girl you missed out on.
Que awkward introduction with married woman I've never even seen before.
That's all for now. I'm sure there will be more later.
Moving to Florida and all that has happened or not happened. I am not so sure that I would have made the move. I'm so glad that I have been here to help my grandparents out and that part I wouldn't change. I just can't seem to find a niche here socially and it just reminds me of California where I felt bored and basically lonely. Why can't friendships be like they were in grade school. Tag you're it and now we are friends. Right now Facebook feels like this double edge sword. I get to keep in touch with friends that are far away from me and know how they are doing. But it also lets me see all the things that are going on close by that I am simply not included it for whatever reason. I don't think that being excluded from the various ongoings with friends nearby is anything malicious its just for whatever reason people don't think to call me. So when I find out that I had friends at a bunch of parties this past weekend but I ultimately ended up just watching the USC game with Nana and Pop.
Granted It probably doesn't help that virtually no one my age around here is single. I do have some friends that are at FC but penetrating that bubble just doesn't work/ hasn't worked. When you aren't there and part of the everyday you just can't keep up with what's relevant.
On another note, I've been reading a really interesting book about jealousy. It has had me thinking back a bit to when I was dating Kym and Michelle and her just could not understand why I was not jealous at all. From the reading and what I remember I think that Michelle and Rick may have been toward the extreme reactions as far and feeling and acting jealous. I on the other hand was not jealous, at the time I dismissed it saying I was just someone who did not get jealous and that was just part of my personality. Now I would say that I was just not jealous because there was no reason for me to be because there was no rival, no one that I found to be a threat to me. On aspect that I have found particularly interesting is that men and women find different things to alert them to feeling jealous and at the time most cannot not put into words with action caused them to feel the emotion to begin with.
Most men have a problem with any sort of physical betrayal in contrast women have an issue with what you might call an emotional betrayal. I think the latter can be slightly more problematic. Say Tom is dating Suzy and Suzy's best friend Gail is over for a party. There are a decent number of guests Suzy is chatting with various guests and at one point notices that Tom and Suzy have been talking for a while and she has notice him smiling or laughing on more than one glance. This creates a strong feeling of jealously in her. For Tom he doesn't think he has done anything wrong, Gail is a friend and he is merely chatting with her and enjoying the party. On the other hand if some guy kissed Suzy its pretty likely Tom may go as far as to harm the male kissing his lady.
Now it may just be because I'm a guy but the what Tom has an issue with is very clear and easily avoided. In the book the author points out that there are many things that we pick up on that are so small we can't determine how we got to the conclusion that a lover may be cheating. Now the author says that this is an evolutionary thing that has developed over time. If you were not good at knowing when you were being cheated on or when a lover may leave you then you did not procreate.
I don't believe in evolution in macro evolution to be more specific I do think that micro evolution may occur for adaptive purposes. But I'm not sure about the realm of evolutionary psychology which is what the author is proposing. It may be that the things which they observe and explain as taking millions of years to develop in our psychology are just programmed into us by God or they are wrong about the duration in which it takes for learned psychological mechanisms to take hold. I'm sure that there may be an option D but I don't know what that is off the top of my head.
If you read all of that then kudos to you.
If you read it all and understood what I was saying then kudos to us both.
If you would like to comment on anything written please do so.
Until I feel like venting/rambling again.
P.S. Pop is doing a whole lot better, but I'm still his shadow in the evenings.
I haven't done a real post in a long time it feels. Not even sure where I've left off so I'll try and summarize.
- End of June: Moved to Florida because I was bored in So Cal and couldn't find work.
- July: Pretty uneventful, looked for work and had no luck. Visited around to various Churches
- August: Brad and Allison move back to Tampa. The day that we are unloading their truck my Grandfather (Pop) falls twice. Apparently I'm the strongest person she knows because I had to pick him up both times. 150lbs of dead weight not so much fun for my back.
- After his falls Pop couldn't use his legs so I was lifting him all day and moving him from a recliner to a wheelchair to get him to the restroom. Since doing this for any real length of time wouldn't work. We had to have an ambulance come pick him up and take him to the hospital.
- Once in the hospital Pop's mind seemed to go and he was talking about things that made no sense. He was in the heart center wing for about a week before being moved to a rehab facility
- John Knox is the rehab center Pop stayed at for a little bit shy of a month. Daily physical therapy helped him recover and as he did his mind seemed to slowly return to normal.
- September: Pop comes home. Since I'm not employed Nana(Grandmother) Asked If I would saty the first few nights to help her out.
- First few nights and I'm still here, watching after him at night is/has become my full time job for now. This is because anytime he goes anywhere someone has to go with him. e gets up about every hour during the night every 30mins during the day to use the restroom.
I'm still kind of looking for a job but not trying very hard, helping out my grandparents is a little more important right now.
Living near the bubble but not in the bubble is not quite what I'd expected it to be. I'm sort of wondering if leaving Bowling Green was the right choice for me, even though now so many of the people I was friends with don't live there anymore.
Sorry so much of this post was about Pop, but since these days I'm his shadow I didn't think it to be too much of a stretch.
If I talked with you multiple times week for over a year by either texting or talking on the phone because we lived far apart. Would you want to hang out often if we ended up living near each other? Or would you start ignoring every text or IM that I send and then act like everything is cool when we run into each other?
Do you frequently just not reply to message people send you?
I am thinking doing so is kind of rude. Am I completely off base?
Wondering if I somehow offended my friend and nothing was said.
Feels like I'm loosing someone and I have no idea why its happening.
Any replies to these things above would be most helpful.
I'm working on a couple of Websites and would like you guys to check them out and give some feedback. One of them I did not design, I just coded for my friend. The other is for my church back home.
Update/ Response to comments:
haha Lindsey that's funny it does look like it says a bat. well like I said I didn't design my friends page he did. Kym do you know which version of explorer you're using? I'm using 7 or 8 I forget and I have to turn compatibility off, the button should show up next to the refresh button. You really should get another browser, I'd suggest Chrome or Safari. I use Chrome for most everything, its set up so that if you're doing something in one tab and it crashes then you don't loose your other tabs, just the one that crashed. Glad to see everyone seems to like the site I actually designed though. I still am planning on adding in a members section and a map page.