Im not sure what to do anymore.....what do I want out of my life? who should really be in it? who shouldnt?

ive been hurt..so i dont trust easy i hold on tight to what i have because im afriad i might lose it if i dont so you just think im being too clingy but im just scared to lose you im not trying to be so dont get mad...my best friends ones i never ever thought i would lose..ive lsot...afew came back and others left again i know some of the reasons they left were my fault but not all ive appologized but yet wasnt forgiven...be told i should just get over it and let them leave my life...but i cant...i need my best friends back....one swears shes not upset with me anymore but yet she doesnt talk to me like she used to....another just doesnt talk to me....i need the poeple i used to depend on to have my back no matter what...or who i thought would have my back no matter what but it seems when things got tough they just left so i guess i couldnt depend on them....and that has completly ruinined my trust...im trying to find people i cant trust and rely on but its so hard...i started to trust someone and ha yea that wasnt a good idea he jsut lied and anyone else since then ive tried to trust they do anything and i question it and question it....im tired of living my life wondering if i can trust anyone or depend on them...but how can i change that? how can i get my life back....

My life is kinda sucking right now!!!!

[x] My fingernails/toenails are almost always painted.
[x] During the summer pretty much the only shoes I wear are flip flops.
[] My favorite toy as a child were barbies.
[] My favorite color is pink or purple.
[x] I did Gymnastics/Cheerleading.
[x] I love skirts/shorts.
[ ] Hollister is my favorite place to shop.
[x] Tight jeans are the only jeans Ill wear. (not real tight i just dont like baggy jeans lol)
[] I love chocolate. (how does lovin chocolat emake u girly?

TOTAL SO FAR: 5

[] I straighten my hair.
[x] I have at least 8 facebook pictures.
[] I usually go shopping once a week .
[x] I love to hang out with friends. (and tht makes u girly?)
[x] I have a real diamond ring or diamond necklace.
[ ] I've gone to a tanning salon.
[x] I've gone to the beach to tan (it was the lake...)
[] I have at least 10 pairs of shoes.
[ ] I watch either The OC, Laguna Beach or Desperate Housewives.
[] I change my profile weekly.
[x] I have worn a shower cap. (once jus messin around lol)

TOTAL SO FAR: 10

[] I would NEVER step foot into Hot Topic.
[x] My cell phone might as well become a part of me.
[x] I've been or am on a diet.
[] Bathing suits are adorable.
[ ] I don't know the difference between a sheep and a goat.
[x] Big sunglasses are awesome.
[x]I have gotten my nails done.
[] I own over 10 purses.
[ ] MuchMusic is one of my favorite channels.

TOTAL SO FAR: 14

[x] I like to talk about boys (More like a boy)
[] I love to have other people do my hair.
[x] I like to give and receive hugs from all my friends.
[] I hate bugs.
[x] Carnivals are fun!
[x] Summer is THE best season
[] I'm waiting for my knight in shining armor.
[] Musicians are awesome


TOTAL SO FAR: 18

[x] I'm self-conscious.
[x] I cry often.
[] My room smells like vanilla.
[] My dishes get washed more then once a week.
[] I don't do sports
[] I HATE to run.
[x] I FREAK OUT when I am surprised.
[] I eat dried fruit as a snack.
[] I love romance novels.
[] Drew Barrymore is so cute.

TOTAL SO FAR: 20

[x] I dance a lot.(sometimes)
[x] I usually spend over an hour to get ready to leave my house.
[x] My hair is important.
[x] I love to get dressed up.
[] Every part of my outfit needs to match.
[x] I talk on the phone at least once a day to my friends.
[x] I'd love to have a photo shoot of myself and my best friends.
[] The price on clothes hardly matters.
[] I apply lipgloss 50 times a day.
[] I wish I were a model.

TOTAL SO FAR: 26

[] I wish I could meet Paris Hilton (ewww! lol)
[] I wanted or have been something that was slutty on Halloween.
[] R&B is the best music.
[] I pop my collar.
[] Guys with Mohawks are GROSS!
[x] Horses are beautiful.
[x] I never pay attention in school.
[] Cats are adorable.

TOTAL SO FAR: 28

[] I write my own music.
[x] I would love to visit Hawaii
[] Valentine's day is so cute! )used 2 think so...)
[] White is better than black.
[] I wouldn't be caught dead in all black.
[] My closet is STOCK FULL of clothes.
[] I hate the grunge look of a beard.
[x] I love to read magazines.

TOTAL SO FAR: 30

[] I love to gossip.
[] I love Celine Dion.
[] My baths are 2 hours long.
[] My wedding only needs a groom because it's already planned.
[ ] My friends and I are in a strict group. We mostly only hang out with each other.
[x] I like kids.
[] Diet drinks are the best.
[] I have been a vegetarian.
[] I refuse to eat at McDonald's.
TOTAL SO FAR: 31

[x] I check my facebook everyday. (thousands of times a day lol)
[] I have a lot of jewelry
[] Claire's has cheap jewelry. (depends on wut u mean by cheap)
[] My screen name[s] has x's in them.] Either one of my screen names has/had

TOTAL=32

Below 40=Not girly
Above 40 = Girly
Above 55 = Paris Hilton


haha i kinda figured i would have more then tht lol

THE BOYS LOL


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