A New Hope...

Dude, I don't think the reality of our situation has sunk in yet. It seems that within a month's time of our moving here we've managed to both of us find full time work in the area! It's very rare (for me it's new) to work, live, and have the local church in the same town. Clearly God has heard my prayers and the prayers of others. Although the things haven't come to pass yet, I want to count them as having already happened, but something is holding me back from having joy over all of this. Maybe it's my fear of not liking the new work - maybe insecurity... whatever it is, Satan wants me to desire more no matter how much God gives me.

There is another factor which I am trying to not only consider, but also deal with since it's probably a huge part of the problem: It seems my sense of discipline is lacking. I don't even do the things I really want to do. I'd like to start biking or maybe jogging, but that seems to never happen. I'd also like to start working out, but that too seems likely to never happen. Instead I play video games as if waiting for someone to call, or church to roll around, or bedtime or work. Why? I hate wasting time. *sigh... all i know is something's not right within me, and God deserves my gratitude for what I've received.

...Perhaps the things I asked for were beyond my comprehension. I hope to understand God's will for me in this place.