hey, im back. for today at least...
so how's everyone's summer been?
mine has been good. busy at some parts and not so busy at others. but its nice...and i wont complain.
so im going to college soon, which is crazy! i go down to FC on the 18th. for all those i'll be leaving behind i will miss you sincerely. and i'll be back whenever i can so thats good. i am excited to go to FC though, it will be quite a new experience for me.
i got my liscense! like a week ago. and ive been driving by myself or with just dustin in the car and it feels so weird...but GOOD. i just thought the day would never come when i could drive myself. of course i dont have my own car, so i cant drive whenever i want to...only when the car is available. but still, it is quite a change! and it makes me happy.
okay, so this entry was mainly just to get rid of my old one and to update on some stuff in my life. so i think thats it for now. thanks and have a nice day.
verses that have been on my mind lately:
"In ALL your ways acknowledge God and He shall direct your paths" -Proverbs 3:6
"If we have food and covering, with these we shall be content." -I Timothy 6:8
"Balaam replied to the servants of Balak, 'though Balak were to give me his house full of silver and gold, I could not do anything, either small or great, contrary to the command of the Lord my God.'" -Numbers 22:18
"He who did not spare His own Son, but delievered Him over for us all, how will He not also with Him freely give us all things?" -Romans 8:32
It the year 2007! i remember when we were gettin all excited because it was going to be 2000. seven years have passed since then. thats CRAZY!
the soccer tournament was a success i think. i know i had fun, and it looked like yall did too. dustin was a good planner, yay dustin! i never thought i'd enjoy playing soccer so much. really, i mean, i never had any desire to play soccer, but it was so much fun. i really enjoyed it. soccer's fun....theres a sentence i never thought i'd say. dont worry though, im not a fairyballer...
okay. so resolutions. well, ive looked back on this year and it has been so great. what a great amount of memories i have now. i want to thank EVERYONE who was apart of it. ive gotten so much closer to all of yall. many friendships have been made closer and stronger. i love all of yall so much. i would not be where i am today without yall. yall have made such a difference in my life. thanks for all of the encouragement!
right, back to resolutions. (i kinda lost focus) heres a list of things i want do better.
1.) TALK TO VISITORS! its so important. visitors may not come back to your church simply because people werent friendly and didnt talk to them. i need to reach out to more people and thats a great way to do that. it can make a BIG difference if we all go talk to the visitors at church. of course that means we're gonna have to PAY ATTENTION to visitors too! (i know thats harder for congregations that are big like embry hills...)
2.) of course, STUDY my bible more! BE MORE KNOWLEDGEABLE. i want to be able to answer peoples questions better.
3.)MANAGE MY TIME BETTER! especially when school starts.
4.) TALK TO PEOPLE AT SCHOOL! i need to reach out more, start spiritual conversations more.
5.) THINK ABOUT OTHERS MORE. denying myself is so hard! but its NECESSARY! i need to remember my place, which is under everyone else. SELF DICIPLINE!
6.) i want to have better eating habits. because you know, since i love food so much, it would be a good exercize of self dicipline for myself. because being able to dicipline myself physically will help me to be able to dicipline myself spiritually! PLUS its just healthier anyway!
well, i just want to make improvements all around is the easy (but less specific) way to put it.
how about yall? what are yall's thoughts about this new year and what yall want do with it, Lord willing that we are given another full year? (isnt that a crazy thing to think about too. this may be the last year we have. we may not even have a full year! that helps make me realize what really matters in this life. makes me realize how much work i still have to do! i need to have that "urgent" mindset more often...)
okay, well thats it for now. i pray that yall who've already started school are being bright lights to everyone around you. and those that havent (like me) are preparing a brand new, even brighter wattage bulb for when we go back. ;)
I dont really know what to say right now. this all may not flow or make any sense at all but i still want to say whatever im going to say.
this life isnt it. we only have one chance to live this life. why are we wasting any time? i know theres still so much for me to learn, to know... ignorance is not a good thing. i know that if we really understood what we have as christians and what the world doesnt have, we wouldnt waste our time reading stories, watching movies, or do anything else besides that which would benefit our relationship to God. and right now thats how i feel. nothing else matters right now. theres no desire for food, entertainment...nothing matters right now except God. WHO He is and WHAT He has to show us. we dont know everything! theres SO MUCH MORE TO KNOW! i want to know it all! im not satisfied having the knowledge that i have now. i want Bible studies, spiritual converstation, prayer time. i love yall and everything that we do together is so fun and has been so fun, but really none of that matters. i could die tonight and it wouldnt matter that i went caroling or to starbucks. really. it doesnt matter. all that matters is God. GOD is what remains when all else is gone. GOD is who we will stand before. do you want to be found lacking? i know i dont. and thats a scary thought. i need to know more. thirst! how i thirst for wisdom! and honestly i havent felt this way in a while. where ALL i want is to study Gods word and know and spread my knowledge to others. ive needed this to come. because lately ive been kind of dry spiritually. and i knew i was but i wasnt doing anything about it. we need to MOURN for our sins. GODLY SORROW LEADS TO REPENTANCE. and thats at the point that im at right now. before i was just kinda stale and i knew i needed to be more like Mary of Bethany who could do nothing but weep when she saw jesus and wipe His feet with her hair. she knew her place. she humbled herself the way that God commands us to. im not humble enough. i forget my place. its like i think "im a christian. im not like the sinners of the world" and in one sense thats right....in the sense that my sin is forgiven and theirs is not. but realy my sin isnt forgiven unless i repent and had not Jesus died on the cross i wouldnt even be able to be forgiven. im no better than anyone else. i am the sinner and Christ is my Savior, my master. we dont really act like servants do we? i mean, honestly examine yourself. do you go to God and say "okay God, what do you want me to do?" and then go do it. and then come back and say "Master, what shall i do for you now?" we dont do that! or at least i dont. at least not all the time. O YE OF LITTLE FAITH! thats me. my faith needs to be bigger. and i will not be satisfied. THATS the attitude we need. I NEED. i hunger for Gods word! for the TRUTH. are we honestly looking for the truth? or do we just believe in God and Christ because thats how we grew up? because its easy to believe it? because we've never considered anything else? TEST YOUR FAITH. study HIS word. GROW! TASTE THAT THE LORD IS GOOD. and do it for yourself. not for me, not for your parents, not for your friends. do it because you want to know the truth and you yearn for wisdom. YOUR FAITH MUST BE GENUINE.
you know...an agnostic, an atheist, and a christian who just "goes throught the motions" all have the same ending...
are you any different from the atheists or agnostics?
"Shout joyfully to the Lord, all the earth!
Serve the Lord with gladness;
Come before Him with joyful singing.
Know that the Lord Himself is God;
It is He who has made us, and not we ourselves;
We are His people and the sheep of His pasture.
Enter His gates with thanksgiving
And His courts with praise.
Give thanks to Him, bless His name.
For the Lord is good;
His lovingkindness is everlasting
And His faithfulness to all generations."
"Bless the Lord, O my soul,
And all that is within me, bless His holy name.
Bless the Lord, O my soul,
And forget none of His benefits;
Who pardons all your iniquities,
Who heals all your diseases;
Who redeems your life from the pit,
Who crowns your with lovingkindess
Who satisfies your years with good things,
So that your youth is renewed like the eagle.
Bless the Lord, all you His hosts,
You who serve Him, doing His will.
Bless the Lord, all your works of His,
In all places of His dominion;
Bless the Lord, O my soul!"
...and may we give thanks like this everyday, recognizing what a priveledge it is to be considered a child of God! We ARE children of God, and may we act accordingly everyday.
"Let the word of Christ dwell in you richly in all wisdom, teaching and admonishing one another in psalms and hymns and spiritual songs, singing with grace in you hearts to the Lord. And whatever you do in word or deed, do all in the name of the Lord Jesus, giving thanks to God the Father through Him."
Have a Happy Thankgiving! Give thanks to the Lord! I am thankful for all of you. God has truely blessed my life. May our thanks not stop after today. Lets keep it going.
i had quite a rewarding past few weeks!
okay so october 15th-20th we had our gospel meeting at roswell; a different preacher every night and each one did a great job! they were all very edifying and motivating sermons. one of my favorite sermons that week was focused on Matt 16:26 which says "For what will it profit a man if he gains the whole world, but forfeits his soul? Or what will a man give in exchange for his soul?" and the answer to that question, of course, is NOTHING! even if we had EVERYTHING in this world, but our soul, it profits NOTHING. and thats something we need to think about more often, because although we dont physically sign a contract and sell our souls to the devil, we can sell our souls to the devil just by making something else more important than our servise to God. and he asked a question at the end of his sermon: "what are you willing to deny yourself of to get to heaven?"
then after roswells meeting i got to catch the end of embry hills meeting with thaxter dickey which was very informative and edifying as well.
BUT WAIT! it doesnt stop there!
the NEXT weekend (last weekend) dustin, marissa, kaitlin, caitlin, daniel, douglas, and i ALL had the opportunity to hop in a car together (thanks to douglas for providing the car and driving ability) and go to 1000 voices!! and a wonderful family of 8 had the hospitality to house us "animals" (as douglas would say) in their home friday night. we also had the opportunity to woriship with them sunday morning which was wonderful! i had never had worship serivice at someones house before! (thank you for your hospitality) and the actual 1000 voices was incredible! we sang for over 4 hours total that day! what a blessing it is to sing praises to our Lord! and thanks to jeff blankenship for also housing us "animals" at his home saturday night. i had a blast. the car rides were great too! we played lots of games and just had a grand ole time.
im still not finished!
THEN this weekend dustin, kaitlin, caitlin, emily, douglas, and i all drove down to florida college for falcon days/to visit. (thanks once more to douglas for the car and driving!) it was AWESOMELY GREAT to see KEREN! and DJ! and TIM! and ANDREW! and DANIEL! i miss all yall SO much! looks like yall are lovin it down there and im really glad about that. and those of you that will be at FC next year, i will most likely (Lord willing) get to BE down there WITH YALL!! WOO! it shall be excellent. anywho i had a GREAT time and i cant wait to see you guys AGAIN! midnight madness was hilarious to watch, i only wish we could have participated some too! i honestly cant wait to go to FC. although i will miss everyone here TERRIBLY! OKAY! i wont talk about it anymore...
to sum it all up i had a FULLfilling weekend. much was learned and much fun was had. i love you all that were apart of it! and also the ones that werent! God be with you.
"And can it be that i should gain an interest in my Savior's blood? Died He for me, who caused His pain? For me, who scorend His perfect love. Amazing love!"