So we had the BIG appointment today. It all went very well. Brady's aorta has not changed!!! It has been stable for a couple of years. I think the new medication is helping..... We don't have to go through this for another year.
So why if in my head I give my worry to God, and I think in . I know that worrying doesn't change a thing...and for the first summer in many I am not eating my stress away.... Then why Monday and today did my stomach burn and my head ached.... I know my body was reacting, but my mind wasn't able to get through some how? Why if I really believe that worrying doesn't help, I can't change what it is, why when close friends would talk to me about it, my eyes would well up with tears? The mom in me obviously is over riding the logic. Am I making any sense?
Maybe you worry not because you think it will make a difference, help, or change the way it is, but you worry because you adore your son. I find that even if I am successful controlling my head during days of trauma, at night I will dream intensely about it. Glad all is very well. Love hurts, but life is about love. Hugs.
It doesn't matter how much you tell yourself not to cry, sometimes the cry just wins out. It's okay, we understand. :) I'm so glad the appointment went well!!
So glad things are looking good! You make perfect sense. All the logic and reasoning in the world can't completely cancel out emotion, otherwise we'd be robots. God gave us such wonderful, deep capacity to love and love manifests itself in many ways at different times. :)
I'm so glad the appointment went well! That's what Christian brothers and sisters are for - bearing one another's burdens. Cry on their shoulders - they won't mind :)
Yeah!!!! I am so thrilled for you! You made perfect sense...emotions and intellect are powerful and the two don't line up the way we'd like. Did you want me to send that email to everyone?
I think I got dehydrated from all the crying I did at and following Caric's stroke, and the subsequent health issues. You are a normal, loving mom, and even when we give a problem to God, it's hard to face the unknown of the future. Glad it's good news! Brady is a good kid!
Ok we are back....I have a copy of the cd with me. I know that all things work out.....even the hard stuff. You can't believe the mental gymnastics that went on in my head this morning.....OK what do I do if they won't let us leave because his aorta has reached critical size.......... So what do I do? I pray and give it to God, because I can't gain more weight. You see every summer for the past oh I don't know 14 I would get anxious about the up coming echo......and eat. It it help or change anything NO!!! but chocolate always helps for awhile. So what have I finally learned over the years? I knew this intellectually for a long time, but my heart wouldn't give it up.... After Brady's last surgery, I really saw the power of God, to the point that my heart truly give it all to God. His timing, the outcome, all of it. All the loved and support that we received before during and after........
So this morning when I would start going down the "what if" I would stop, pray and give it to God. You do need to know that if we find out bad news on Sept. 2 (which I doubt, but my human self seems to go down the what if.....) I would pray, and then text Monique....I don't now suffer in silence...That reminds me I need to find out if Monques's phone has text. messaging....
Anyway thanks for the prayers and support. You have no idea how much they mean to me...
I'm sure it's hard not to worry. Isn't it great to be a child of God and hand all our worries over to Him? Whatever happens will give God glory - I know you know that :) Your family is in my prayers!!
What a great attitude. I know what you mean. Just knowing that there are so many Christians praying for you and your family is so relieving. It helps us too! It's something we can do for you!
You guys will be in our prayers. You've dealt with this for so long, it must be a huge relief to know you can hand your worries to Him and know that so many others care and will pray for you. And I'm with ya on the eating thing - sadly it never changes a thing, except to make us feel worse than when we started! :)
