Wow. I almost forgot I had a Pleo account. Well, God has certainly been so good to me lately. Here's a rundown of what's transpired over the last 6 or so months:
-I have a WONDERFUL girlfriend named Irasema (Errie for short). I love her so much. She is a devoted servant of the Lord, smart as a whip, and so danged funny. I think I might ask her to marry me after I get back from Iraq next year.
-Sadly, Mom and Dad are divorced now. It sucks, yes, but God has a greater plan for us all. I still love them both, and they still love me. I think they love each other, but don't belong together...it's complicated. But God is good.
-As you can see, my relationship with Jesus Christ is the strongest it's ever been. I have Errie to thank for helping me get back on track with Him. Wish I'd never strayed; I might still have some friends today.
-Got promoted to Senior Airman earlier this fall. The pay raise is nicer; it'll be nicer when the 3.9% raise for all military goes in effect in January, lol.
-I'm in base honor guard. It rocks. End of story.
for those of you who used to know me, you might remember that I was troubled in the past. I could go on about why that is, but I don't like making excuses, I just learn from my mistakes and move forward. For those I offended, you have my deepest apologies and I beg your forgiveness, especially to Kym and Phillip Graves, and their family. They were so close to me and I ruined that. I hope to rebuild that friendship someday.
Well, hope to see some people on here someday. Until then, love, peace, and chicken grease. Glory be to God forever.
so i just joined the base honor guard. very excited. looking forward to serving with them and wearing the really sweet uniforms.
i expect to be told within the next week if i make BTZ or not. i think i will get it.
still getting better all the time. i'm almost afraid to have a drink after getting sober. strangely enough, i want to deploy again so i conquer my fears. i just don't want to suffer from post deployment stress syndrome again. hopefully i will be able to appreciate my friends better this time around or at least earn respect instead of try to force it out of them.
mom and dad are still divorcing but i'm getting over that little by little.
i'm still trying to get my faith back but it's so hard sometimes. i could use some help. hint hint....
sent kym an apology at last on her myspace. i've been afraid of saying something to her because she and phillip don't want me in contact with them anymore, not that i blame them. hope she forgives me eventually.
but in case anyone actually does, here's what's been going on with me for the last 2 months.
never thought i'd develop a drinking problem but i did but i got help and now i'm over it. chances are i will never have a drop of it again. i don't like what it did to me.
turns out i actually did have post deployment stress problems. thought it was only in peoples' heads but apparently not. got some help and spoke to some counselors for it. feeling so much better nowadays.
i am very ashamed of my behavior from a few months ago and i owe a few apologies to several folks. i will dispatch those privately to avoid any unnecessary embarassment. but the brandon you dealt with recently was not the real one. wanna know the REAL brandon michael metz? check out my myspace and facebook to see for yourself.
god bless you all. hope you will take me back someday.
